Nic's Life

I knew this would happen

2009-05-19T12:02:00.000-07:00

It has been a long time with no posts. Things got extremely crazy in my work life, which made my personal life stall for some time (my stalled personal life is still probably about 4 times busier than most people's, but whatever!).

Old Boss - who I think I might actually use his real name for on here, stopped paying me. He was off wandering the world and not getting in touch at all. I had my suspicions about things not being exactly on the up and up with him and had started looking for a new job a few months ago. He proved me right and I literally didn't get paid for over a month. He was in Australia then somewhere in Asia (apparently in the depths of a jungle or something because I would get sporadic emails about not having internet access). Apparently he thinks I am stupid - there are probably about 2 places in all of the world that are not fully wired these days. Not to mention he is a trader as his primary business...what trader do you know that is not always wired????

In this time I got a few emails introducing new people to me that were now my new bosses or new people I would be reporting to, etc. These guys were all very strange and one of them was the most annoying person I have ever had the displeasure of dealing with. He is the guy who can talk for 2 hours and everything that needed to be covered could have actually taken 10 minutes. I did get a lot of house cleaning done while leaving him on speakerphone though.

It was during this time that everytime I spoke to someone about what was actually going on that everyone started using different names for Blayne (the name I know my boss as, but I think his name is actually Charles). I knew I had to get out quickly, so started looking harder for something new.

I managed to land my dream job a few weeks ago. I was so relieved to have a steady paying job and it really is what I want to be doing, so just extra bonus. I didn't tell Blayne I had taken a new job and didn't plan on it. There was no way he was going to pay me if he knew I was somewhere new.

I finally spoke to him after I had been at my new job about a week. He told me he was going through hard times...blah, blah, blah. I Googled him at this point and found this. He finally sent me some money (not everything he owed me...of course). I am still not sure how someone who steals $17 million can't pay me a few thousand, but at least I got something.

Obviously not knowing where my next meal was going to come from made me be somewhat quiet. Although my friends managed to enable me enough to still go out and have some fun a few nights.

In my previous post I mentioned Mr5Years and KS and they both disappeared. Mr5Years still puzzles me and I have no idea why he stopped contact. I think he is a complete pussy (not the first time he has done this, so he obviously is not an adult who can deal with things maturely). KS wasn't someone I thought would go anywhere from the start so I just stopped returning his calls eventually.

Since then I kind of cooled on dating and have been concentrating on the gym and work. This has been a good thing and I have been feeling great. This weekend was a crazy one and I am still recovering, but the one thing happened that I knew would happen eventually.

Thursday night I got my hair done and then Sarah and I went for wine. I met up with KB and friends and ended up at the Roxy. I came home at a reasonable hour and then stayed up most of the night on the phone with Toad trying to deal with the drama there (for the record he also muchly contributed to my money issues), so we had that to deal with.

Friday I worked all day and then went to S3 for drinks with ES and then we headed to GM for Fleetwood Mac. Most amazing concert ever. It was so great I really can't do it justice on here. We headed into YT after the concert for a bunch of food (damn you munchies!!) and CJ came and met us and him and I went to the Roxy again. It sucked...again. I was about to leave after one drink when I ran into a very drunk MM. I ended up hanging out with him for a few drinks and then decided to walk him home, which ended with me waking up in his bed. Ugh!

AT and I walked the seawall Saturday morning and then went for a boozy lunch at CC. We decided it would be fun to head out to the rodeo that night. I called JG and it was on. The three of us headed out to the burbs and did some predrinking at J's. We went to the rodeo and the line was ridiculous - there was no way we were getting in so we headed to Gabby's instead. AT and I had so much fun. There were High Five's everywhere and boys (real boys) everywhere. I ended up meeting one who really caught my fancy. We had so much fun together...dancing, shots, drinking. We ended up back at his buddy's and then back at J's at 5:30 am. AT and I decided to just come home. So, I drove home with no sleep at 6am (so not smart). I got home and crashed.

I got up and headed to M&D's for backyard fun. It was so hot back there - I got completely sunburned (dumb!). We ended up BBQing and hanging out all night. I finally crashed at 4am and was up at about 9 heading home. Kind of a pattern.

Yesterday I barely left my couch. I was so exhausted. I have been in contact with BB (Burb boy) since we parted. He is coming in to see me tomorrow night and I have to say...this is the most excited I have been for a first date in a really long time. So, I guess we shall see.

I always knew I would never meet anyone I really like in Vancouver. My friends knew it too so no one was surprised that I met a Burbs boy who drives a truck. I evern told AT on the way out that I need to meet someone who can change oil or a tire. He sent me a text yesterday saying he was going to do both on his truck. So cute!

I am heading to Sasquatch this weekend for 5 days of concerts and good times with the girls. I cannot wait. Hopefully we will make it with our RV in tact! Haha.

So, I guess this is to be continued...

Maybe this can help explain things

2009-03-26T18:07:00.000-07:00

So, as mentioned in last post I currently have a few guys in my life that seem to have some sort of potential. I now realize it is me that has pretty much zero potential. I really know it!

I can't be all cool like a guy and talk sports and act all like "I am not a girl, I don't care" and then try to get upset when guys believe this attitude and don't do things I want them to.

Case in point. Mr 5 Years has a pretty firm handle on who I am and what I am like. He knows I have a porcupine-like exterior, but he also knows there is one of those pink-coloured mini marshmallows hiding in there somewhere (though he really has yet to see any of it (maybe a tiny tiny bit)) Yes I just used double parenthesis...whatever. Deal!

Mostly Mr 5 Years sees the girl who is always joking, talks sports, talks about jerking off (c'mon, everyone does it!) and speaks her mind. Anyway, he called me yesterday in the afternoon and asked me to a movie this evening. I thought it was sweet that he called so far in advance and planned something. Even though I am not sure how we will ever get passed making out if our dates continue to include others or be so chaste! Anyway, I was really excited about it all. He figured work would keep him busy late so it would have to be a late movie...fine by me!

He just texted, yes, texted! to say he is probably too busy for a movie tonight, even a late one. I sent him back a super cryptic, girly message back - what I actually wrote follows my name (what I wanted to write is in brackets):

Nic: Figured (fuck you - I turned down another date and 2 friends for this damn movie!)
Mr5Y: Not sure how I should take that
Nic: I know you're busy (You could have called dumbass!)

He then asked for my email address and forwarded me an email his brother sent to him after meeting me last weekend, which basically said how awesome he thinks I am. This guy is good. He knows how to get out of a hole!

Nic: Thanks. That was sweet. (Is your brother single? Maybe he will make time for me)
Mr5Y: After big meeting next week and other business shit (not his words - just how I interpreted them) is cleared up I will have more time and I would like to see you more.
Nic: That's nice to hear. I am just disappointed. (Whatever - I will believe it when I see it a-hole!)

But at least I got through to the point I was disappointed - even though it took 20 minutes! Mr5Y does not think this will phase me because he thinks I can take it. Well guess what - it bugged me a LOT! I actually got teary eyed. I am fairly certain it was from cutting up the onions at lunch, but still!

Here is the conversation I had with KS (the OTHER one) yesterday. He is currently staying with his brother in my burb cuz he just moved out here and relping with house renos and nanny duties. Weird, but whatever. He calls when he is watching the damn kids and it drives me f'n crazy. His nephew is always screaming like a little girl in the background. Anyway, this is how our conversation went:

Nic: How old is your nephew again? (I think I have asked him this about 4 times)
KS: 19 months
Nic: Oh, so like 2
KS: No, like 19 months
Nic: 19 months 2 years same thing
KS: actually not really

This is when I realize that 2 years = 24 months not 20 like my brain was telling me.

Nic: right, well he is closer to 2 than 1
KS: I guess
Nic: either way, isn't that a lot of screaming for a kid that age?
KS: Ya, I should go now

KS actually called later to apologize for calling when the kids were dumping bowls of KD in their head, but I am fairly certain he learned I am not all that into his underlings. Whatevs!

Something tells me my 2 front runners are going to end up tieing for last place!

And...we're off!

2009-03-24T14:35:00.000-07:00

After an entirely crazy weekend I am finally feeling somewhat human. I need to get to the gym before I am 100%. That will be happening in the next few hours.

So, to sort of pick up where I left off...I did end up going out with Mr 5 Years after my last post. We met up for a hockey game and dinner and drinks a few days after that post. We had a really great time. Our chemistry is so bang on it is kind of scary. We have a lot in common and know a lot of the same people. Our first kiss was the kind that leaves you feeling somewhat breathless. So, it was all in all a good date.

We went out again this past Friday night. We were supposed to go to a movie with his brother and his friend, but by the time they finished watching their beloved hockey team they were quite late getting me and none of us had eaten, so we ended up just going for dinner and drinks. We both know the owner of the restaurant we went to and he knew a lot of the staff. We all ended up going to PO with the staff after dinner. It wasn't my scene, but it was nice to have some somewhat alone time with Mr 5 Years. We have a hard time keeping our hands off of each other, but have both decided we are not rushing into anything. We are very honest with each other, so it is good to just take things slow (for now). I did tell him that I do feel like I want to see him more than we should be right now and he totally understood that. We talk every day...I guess we will see how things go there.

Saturday I had the family over and we went to a play. It was really good. We went for dinner after and then I came home and relaxed for a while then headed to Kits for poker night with the boys. It ended up being really fun. I met CP's best friend and him and I hit it off amazingly well, but of course he lives over 3,000 km away. I might see him again before he heads home, but no big deal there. He might be moving out here, in which case I would for sure see him again, but no point of anything unless he does.

I got home sometime Sunday morning and showered and had somehow planned 2 dates. Ooops. I cancelled one and the other one got delayed and wasn't sure when he was available. I ended up going for a boozy brunch with AT and the girls met up with us and had drinks on the patio. After a few too many drinks KS called and said he could come to meet me now. I had to kind of give him the head's up that we had already had a bottle of wine so I might be a little tipsy for our date. He was fine with it and came and met me on the patio. Talk about walking into a shit storm! This was our first date and he was meeting the friends in the first 2 minutes. He was totally fine and everyone got along with him great. We took off and came here so I could change. We decided to go for a walk and we ended up on the AquaBus and took a harbor tour. He just moved here 3 weeks ago, so has not seen any of the city yet, so I decided to play tour guide. We ended up on Granville Island and walked around a bit and then went to Bridges for some wine. After some more walking we took the Bus back and went to LaBodega for sangria and appies. After we finished up there we came back to my place and the girls were texting and they wanted to head out. We went and met them at Earls YT. They had some friends with them as well, so it ended up being quite the little crew. We ended up at the Roller (ugh!)

KS got along really well with everyone and we ended up having a great time. I got home and flopped onto my bed and passed out. KS slept on my couch and was freezing. I brought him into my room and we snuggled for the morning and afternoon. I was pretty damn hungover all day yesterday. Today I am in serious need of a workout and then I will be 100%.

So, as usual when it rains it pours. I am not sure what is going to happen with either (or any) of these guys, but it is nice to have met some non-douchebags who I actually like.

This weekend is shaping up to be a crazy one too. I need a break!

I Know it is Me!

2009-03-05T11:37:00.000-08:00

So, after the last post I saw a lot of MM. He made me dinner that night at his place, which was lovely. We had a bunch of wine and I ended up crashing there. I saw him later on Friday night after Lea and Stace left from a drinking/gabbing session. I should have known it was not a good idea for him to come over when Lea and I were leaving to head out and I got in my elevator, walked into my lobby and turned around and came back to my apartment because I was way too loaded to go out. He came by a bit after that and we both basically passed out.

I went hiking all day Saturday with AT - 3 hours of hiking at UBC was insane. Neither of us planned to go that long, but we got somewhat lost on the trail and ended up pretty much as far away as possible from our starting point. I knew we were in trouble when I asked someone on a trail the way back to Spanish Banks and their face registered alarm. It ended up being an awesome workout though, so all good.

I got back from hiking and had a quick shower and DA and i went to new Earl's for food (for her) and beer for me. After insulting the waiter as much as we could Clark showed up and we all decided to head to DA's with wine for the night. After MUCH wine I decided it would be wise to invite MM over. Why oh why would I invite someone over to meet by besties when I wasn't sure I liked him??? Of course they loved him. We came back to my place that night and basically both passed out again.

Sunday I met AT for lunch in YT and ES came and met us afterwards. The 3 of us took the dog and went for a long seawall jaunt. It was really nice out. After the walk I came home and did chores around the house. I went over to Toady's for the game (MM went to it with coworkers and was heading out with them afterwards). He called me after and invited me to join them. Again, I have no idea why (damn booze!) His coworkers were great and we had some drinks and they all took off. MM and I went to IrishPub and drank beers and played darts. At some point in the night I finally agreed to not see other people (again, why???) I woke up at his place Monday morning wondering what the hell I had agreed to. I knew I couldn't do it and not into him enough to put him through my ridiculousness. I left there in a hurry and came home.

Tuesday DA came by in the afternoon. Now that I have beautiful home office she comes by in between appointments and works with me here. She was getting ready to go to another appointment and Clark called a little tipsy from a business lunch, so she came over with a few bottles of wine and the 3 of us started drinking at about 4:30 on a Tuesday. Jesus!! After some drinks and pizza and Clark's BF stopping by I was alone and realized I had to do the deed. I called MM and told him this wasn't going to work for me. He kind of got the hint on Monday morning, but still he was not happy. I think I apologized 6 times. I am an idiot! Another one bites the dust. I have never been in a situation where I dated someone I wasn't physically attracted to and I thought if I liked the person enough it wouldn't matter. Turns out I was wrong!

Yesterday I trained with DA's trainer. It was awesome to get back into that. It is such a good workout. I was supposed to go to DA's for dinner later, but our wires got crossed and by the time we touched base we were both bagged and I just decided to get some food and stay home.

I was up at 5:30 this morning for hot yoga, went to Richmond to get a monitor from the office, filled up, washed my car, got groceries and showered and got ready before 10 am! It is noon and feels like it is about 8 pm. So productive! ExT texted yesterday to see if I wanted to get coffee today. We haven't seen each other in a long time, so I figured why not. He just called and somehow he mentioned that he is living in Kits now...with his GF...who he BOUGHT a place with. Wow! I don't care about him in that way anymore, but holy fuck it was still like a punch in the stomach. He still wants to get together this afternoon, but I am not sure I am going to do it now. Argh!

In the craziness of all of this I actually have a prospect I am super excited about. If this date happens it will be a first date 5 years in the making (maybe even longer). About 5 years ago Lea and I were at the BC Lions Western Championship. I was in the beer lineup (Duh!) and a guy came up to me and whispered something in my ear and walked off. I didn't quite get what he said and just wrote it off as a drunk at a CFL game, which is usually the entire crowd. Anyway, I went back to my seat and he was 2 rows behind me. We kept smiling at each other throughout the day. After the game he came over and told me he had seen my on an online dating site. Ahhhhh...OK, so not just a drunk at a CFL game...a drunk at a CFL game who is also a creepy online stalker! Haha. Anyway, the next day he emailed me on said site and we stayed in touch, but nothing ever came of it. I ran into him at bars a few times and there was always flirting, but again nothing. One of these nights I did give him my number and we had a date all planned for a Friday night. There were lots of flirty texts leading up to it and the day of he called to let me know he had an emergency at work, so it was a no go. For whatever reason we never rescheduled. We have been FB friends for quite some time and I noticed when he added me he had a gf (or at least it seemed he did, so I never got in touch). Cue to Tuesday night - I am back on said dating site and I see his profile. I emailed him to laugh and say hi. He emailed me back immediately and said he was just sending me an email at the same time to ask if we should finally have the date. After many back and forth emails he called and we chatted for a while and it looks like this time we are actually going to go out. There has been flirty texting since then, so this could be interesting. The anticipation of 5 years could ruin this one, but it is nice to be excited about something!

The same night this was all happening DA had left here and was on her way home when she got a call from an old friend. He was at a pub with some friends so she went by. One of his friends was single and DA thought he was cute so she emailed me his pic. He added me to BBM and we started chatting. I know nothing about this guy, but we are supposed to go out for drinks tonight. It was a busy night!

Reporting on my disastorous dating life one failure after another!

Absence Makes the Heart Grow Fonder

2009-02-25T13:51:00.000-08:00

I seem to have been somewhat preoccupied with work, dating and ridiculousness lately so have not been updating. I am not even sure where to begin. I have gone on a few dates, but nothing I was blown away by...OK, that is not entirely true, but the bad have outweighed the good. Here is one of the bad:

I went for drinks with OldYT Guy last Thursday night. Here is the thing: he is a very good looking guy, but super geeky. I wan't even aware that you could still be geeky at 39, but he was. I also tend to like a guy who is somewhat on the geeky side, so that must mean he was super over the top geeky. I sometimes think that if my mood was different a date could go completely the other way. He had planned for him to come and pick me up at 8 - after he was done at some work event. He didn't come until 9:30 (he did call, but still!) By the time he got here I was annoyed and tired after a full day of working out and working. We went for drinks and some snacks and I tried to get over my annoyance, but it just didn't happen. I moved away every time he tried to touch me and leaned forward when he put his arm across the back of the booth. I was still being nice, but not flirty at all. He dropped me off and went in for a full on open mouth kiss. I flew out of the car as quick as I could. Post script to this date: Queen and Heart sound nothing alike (noted by the fact that one has a female singer and one a male) and Heart is not classic rock just like a 1985 Camaro is NOT a hot rod!!!!

The other bad ones are too generic to even bother with. Drinks, crappy conversation, blah, blah, blah.

I also went out a few times with SD, who was one of the best first dates ever. We ate and drank and almost got on a flight to Vegas at 1 am after hitting at least 5 different spots and drinking as many bottles of wine. We decided it was probably not a good idea and went to the casino instead. Somehow we both managed to win money, but not exactly sure how. Talk about a Sunday Funday. Monday at work was not that fun. We chatted throughout the day and he called and said he was going to come over Monday night and make some food (he is a trained chef) and have some wine. After getting a few confusing texts after that he showed up at my place with no food or wine and completely drunk. He failed to mention in our phone conversation that he was drinking all day. He also forgot about the phone conversation we had that he said he would make me dinner in. OK, pizza it is. He insisted he wanted to watch a movie so I ordered one and he passed out on my leg. Wonderful! The best part if that the one character (the asshole) in the movie totally reminded me of JG, so I texted to tell him this and we ended up texting back and forth throughout the movie. He thought it was pretty funny that my "date" was passed out on my couch.

SD came over on Friday night when he got off work. I had a bunch of people here playing poker and having drinks. He got along with everyone and we had a good time, but I knew it couldn't go anywhere. He actually left to go home today for an indeterminate amount of time due to his father being terminally ill; he is not expected to live throughout this week. No wonder the kid is drinking so much! So, maybe some other time.

Saturday Toad and I went for lunch and drank beer and watched Hockey Day in Canada all day. I left at about 7 and met T at my place. We headed out to meet JG and friend and ended up downtown having more drinks. After running into EngagedGuy we left and got pizza and came to my place. We all got up in the morning for an early breakfast before JG and B headed back to the burbs. EngagedGuy texted me all Sunday and tried to come over. Douchebag!

Sunday I ran around a bunch and then headed to G for the Oscar part and Jen's birthday. We ended up having a complete blast; open bar and buffet. It was so good. After a few hours we decided to head to the Roxy (where else would you wrap up a Sunday Funday). A lot of shots and drinks later I was on the dance floor (how does that happen??) Did I mention I was wearing a tiny black dress and very high stilletos for the Oscar party??? Ya, I was that chick at the Roxy!

Somehow I ended up chatting with a guy who was really nice and we found out we live across the street from one another. After all of the "no sex" reassurances we went to his place for a glass of wine and decided to watch a movie. I totally passed out in the typical Nic fashion...snoring very loudly and unmovable. After MM tried to wake me up for a while he went to bed. I woke up in the morning on his couch...very short dress now riding up somewhere around my waist, stilletos still on, snoring loudly (yes I even caught myself snoring). It took me a few minutes to figure out where I was and also remembered there was talk of MM having a roommate. After walking by an empty room I sneakily tried to open the other bedroom door, but of course it was the squeakiest door ever! MM woke up and kind of just laughed at me. He pulled me into bed with him and we ended up talking for quite some time (mostly laughing at the site his roommate would have woken to). After an hour nap I told him he had to make the walk of shame with me (trust me, this one was bad!!!) I really needed a coffee (his Starbucks is also mine - he didn't want to take me there because I looked so trampy!) but we went anyway and ran into 2 of his ex cowrokers (he used to work at the attached hotel). Sometimes this city is just too small!

We got our coffees to go and came to my place...I got changed and we went for lunch in YT. We just click. There is no weirdness and we are just super comfortable with eah other. He walked me home after we took a short walk in the rain - i had to head to my chiro to pay them. He had some things to do and then came over again later on and took me for sushi. Kind of like 3 dates in 24 hours. I don't think I have ever done that.

He is having me over for dinner tonight. Apparently he can also cook. So far so good. I actually had a chiro appointment this morning and my chiro's mom (the receptionist) told me that my boyfriend is very nice and we make a great couple. I had to laugh at that one.

So that is mostly up to current. I will keep you posted on MM and everything else upcoming!

I should listen to those voices in my head

2009-02-10T10:16:00.000-08:00

As predicted things went very badly with NewF this weekend and I will not be seeing him again. Haha. I should have known better than to even waste my time seeing him Saturday, but I figured seeing him would make me know for sure what I was feeling. I should have listened to myself. I had the opportunity to go out and have fun and instead went over to his place. Needless to say, I was home before midnight. Oh well, it least it as a quiet night and I was up early Sunday morning for yoga!

I needed the quiet night after Friday night. A few of us went for dinner and drinks and then to G for more drinks. D and SIL left pretty early and I was already pretty buzzed. The guys were going to BN for a stag, which they tried to get me to go on, but I figured it was better to not go considering I was already pretty drunk. I went home and Toad came over and we ended up staying up into the wee hours. I actually woke up feeling OK Saturday and even managed the gym. I ran a bunch of errands throughout the day (I am probably the only person who considers shopping running errands!) haha.

Sunday was a good day. After yoga I got ready and headed out for actual errands. I took my broken purse that I bought over a year ago back to the store (something I had been putting off for months) and they gave me a brand new purse. I was so shocked. The new purse was actually less than the original, so they gave me the difference in cash. So I walked out with a new $200 purse and $20 in my pocket! I was ecstatic.

Sunday evening Cam came by and we went to Earl's for some snacks and drinks, which turned into quite a few drinks, which turned into going to LaB(he had never been) for sangria and mussels and then back to my place for a bottle of wine. I said I was in the mood for a Sunday Funday!! It was a good time. Not sure if I will see him again in a romantic sense, but either way he is fun.

I not into more posting at the moment...just wanted a weekend recap!

Am I doing this on purpose?

2009-02-06T14:10:00.000-08:00

So, I have not seen NewGuy (who will now be called NewF - I give him a name just in time for him to disappear...Perfect!) since last weekend. Our schedules during the week or somewhat at odds. I am a morning workout person and he is a night workout person, so it doesn't seem to work during the week for us. Having said that I don't think going out to a movie or a drink sometime after 8 is ridiculous, but I think NewF does. So, he somewhat reserved me for Saturday, which seemed like it was going to be a bowling date. He emailed me this morning (as he always does) and let me know he is going skiing tomorrow and will be home at about 5 or so. I have to admit I got a little irrationaly when I read it. I want him to do his thing and all, but we all know after a day of skiing and 3 hours of travel to get there and back he is not going to be a lot of fun.

I let him know that we could postpone Saturday night because he would be tired, but he said no it was fine "as long as I don't mind a chill night". OK, here's the thing...I do! It is Saturday night. The night for fun, not the night for chill. This is our 4th date and a Saturday night. We should be going out for dinner and drinks and getting drunk and making out inappropriately on street corners, not laying on his couch watching movies...that is for like 6 months into a relationship not 3 weeks!

I also had a girl's night offer from some really fun girls I know, so I am not sure if it is just that I don't want to miss out on that (to be honest, I am not really that into it, so I don't think it is that). Am I being ridiculous? Is it normal to feel like this?

I emailed him and told him we should just play it by ear and see how he feels. What I really mean is "let's play it by ear and see how I feel". If I want to tear it up tomorrow night then I am going to.

Here is my other thought though. Sunday Funday seems to be calling my name this week, so maybe a chill Saturday night would be good, so that early brunch is possible on Sunday.

I know, I know...my life is so tough. I guess if my plans for Saturday night are my biggest worry then I really shouldn't be complaining. I think I am just venting...not complaining. At the end of the day we all know I am going to do what I want to do anyway. I just wish I knew what that was!

Tonight I am heading out with D & SIL for dinner and drinks and then more drinks and then more drinks. I haven't seen SIL in a long time and D and I thought she could probably use a night on the town. It should be good times.

I have worked out twice today already and I feel like I could go again. This hot yoga really gives you energy. I could have ran forever at the gym this afternoon. For the record EngagedGuy from previous post was not at the gym today though he did Facebook chat with me first thing this morning. The whole thing is weird. Also, weierd is his buddy is the guy I ran into at the gym last week (and who has been trying for 5 years). While EngagedGuy was chatting his buddy also started Facebook chatting with me! They were probably on the phone with each other conspiring to drive me mad! Further proof that the gym is a bad place where bad things happen! I might have to stick to my apartment gym. Everyone ignores each other there!

I also have a guy who I dated a few times getting in on the texting and Facebook chatting fury that has been happening. We will call him Welshie. This is a relationship that basically moved into friends with benefits (or at least he thought). Now that I am showing no interest he is all over me. Always the way. I am going to do this with every guy from now on. Actually I am going to turn super stalker psycho on the guys I don't like in the hopes that they will go away!

Did I mention that T has been texting and wanting to get together too?? Ya, now that he is basically living with his girlfriend. This might be one of the best lines ever from a guy:

T: I really want to see you. The reason I haven't been able to see you is because my feelings for you haven't changed Nic. When I think of you I still have the same feelings and I am not sure that if I saw you that I would be able to say no to jumping into bed with you...
Me: Ummmmm and since when would I be asking?
T: You know what I mean
Me: No I don't. I figured getting together for a drink actually meant getting together for a drink...Silly me.

WTF????? Men!!!!

I think I might scrap all men this weekend and just go out and play...I think it is what I really want. Well that and a Sunday Funday! Wish me luck!

PS - I have Noxema in my gym bag for after workouts to put on my face. I dare anyone to smell Noxema and not think about growing up and sunburns! I swear I felt like I was 7 at the beach with my family after putting that on today!

Cuz I can

2009-02-05T14:30:00.000-08:00

I have a mountain of work to do and instead I am blogging. I am so smart. A quick update on my lunchtime excursion to the gym...

I go downstairs for my 5 minutes cardio warmup, which felt great by the way (I am going to say this is due to hot yoga, but that is mostly to make me feel better about throwing money I don't have at 20 sessions of it!). Anyway, I am running away and look over at the guy a few treadmills down who looked like he might be cute. I am not one to pick up at the gym (or anywhere for that matter), but it is not often I see cute guys at this particular gym (I see lots at the one I usually go to, but sadly they are not into vagina). Anyway, I look over and he is looking at me and our eyes lock in the mirror. I think "funny...he looks strangely like someone I know in the Biblical sense, someone I have known a long time, someone who has been in and out of my life a lot (everytime one of his relationships breaks up)...and as we smile at each other I realize it is him. How random! We are too far away to chat but we smile and say hi. I start to think about our past...here it is in a nutshell:

-Meet at old hangout bar (Lea was friends with his roommate)
-Get drunk at old hangout bar
-Exchange digits at old hangout bar
-Maybe he comes home with me that night??? Recollection is not clear here
-Hang out a number of times
-He comes to my 30th birthday party (this means we met over 4 years ago)
-We get drunk
-He stays over
-He pulls an Irish Exit and I don't hear from him in some time
-About a year later I see him at old hangout bar
-He is living with his girlfriend
-He wants to come home with me
-I say no, then yes, then no
-He comes home with me
-We watch a movie
-We make out
-I make him go him
-He leaves his belt
-I tell him he should get it
-He does and again an Irish Exit
-We see each other now and again over ensuing years
-One night he ends up at my place
-Makes all sorts of promises
-Irish Exit

Does anyone else see a pattern here????

Over the last year and a half or so he has texted and emailed numerous times to say hi. I know through Facestalking he has gotten engaged to the girl he has been with for quite some time now. Since he has been with her he has tried to make plans with me numerous times...one night he ended up coming to meet me at about 2 am at D's. I sent him on his way though...I couldn't do something like that.

So, cut to the gym. As I finish my warmup I walk by him and give him a "have a good workout" and go to tend to my own workout. I see him leaving and scouring the gym for me. I am upstairs and he doesn't see me. I leave the gym and get a text about how amazing I look and it was so good to see me...blah blah blah. Somehow through text I think we just made a date for the gym tomorrow. Argh!!!!!!!!!!

Also, if he saw me now the word amazing would not come out of his mouth. I realized I did not have a towel with me after exiting the gym shower and had to dry off with my sweaty workout gear. Kind of defeats the purpose I think! So, I am an idiot who has no willpower as far as I can tell.

At least I am working out and getting in shape while doing these things!

Permanent Damage

2009-02-05T11:51:00.000-08:00

I think I may have done some permanent damage to my body on Super Bowl Sunday. Seriously. I have been dragging my ass ever since! I set my alarm for 6:30 this morning so I could get to the gym before work (as is my usual routine). I woke up at 8:45...apparently the crucial part of setting the alarm is actually making sure it is turned on! I never sleep in that late. I jumped out of bed and got ready quickly and got into the office before 10. It isn't like I have to be here at any particular time, but I have a ton to do today. I hate starts like this! Now I feel like crap and feel behind the 8 ball. I had to rework my day so now I am going to head to the gym in Ditchmond in a few minutes and get my workout in and then try to get out of here at a decent hour tonight to make hot yoga at 6.

We'll see how the plan goes considering Boss is in Oz and he is expecting me to work on his time zone. WTF? The demands were coming in fast and furious last night at 6pm. I was ready to strangle him! I will just work from home some tonight after yoga I suppose. I am working from home tomorrow, so I will workout whenever I please!

Who knew you could write 2 paragraphs on such banal shit?

For people who don't like to hear about certain girl things you may want to stop reading now. Here is the thing...I have an IUD. It is a form of birth control that I love. It is almost to get pregnant (unless it happens to fall out...not that I would know what that is like or anything!), you don't get a period and it is unintrusive and works for 5 years. Pretty amazing stuff. For those that are thinking...IUD ewwww...these aren't your mother's IUDs (2 words you probably didn't need to have put together!) the new ones on the market are awesome (no brass). Anyway, there is one small problem. No period means no idea where in your monthly cycle you are at. Even though there is no period there are still some slight PMS symptoms that show up. I just have no idea when this is going to happen. I am hoping that this is my monthly cycle time right now...otherwise I really do think Sunday ruined me a bit. I am lethargic and feeling a wee bit down and just kind of "leave me alone". If it doesn't pass by tomorrow I will know that a 12+ hour shift of drinking and other things is not a way for a 34 year old to pass a Sunday (notice that I am still not sure if this is a good or bad thing!)

So, I am off to the gym to try and lift my spirits and get rid of the belly I seem to have collected on Sunday (beer + wings + 2 types of fries + cheesy soup + more beer = FAT) I just had a thought though....maybe it is my time of the month and I am moody and bloated...not fat! Here's to wishing I am shedding an egg as we speak!

I am alive?

2009-02-04T10:33:00.000-08:00

Good lord am I ever getting old! Girl's Super Bowl Sunday Funday ended up starting early and going into the wee hours of the morning. I finally feel human today (it is Wednesday for those playing along at home). I drank a lot of beer and ingested other things later in the night that led me to be a bag of shit until today. Note to self: I am not 18. It was a really fun day though and my Steelers won, which made it even better. After the craziness at R2 we went for some food and drink at CC and then AT and I made the Sunday night rounds ending up at the Roller (of course!) There was an after party and then there was me home in bed with chips, chocolate and milk before passing out cold. Monday was a complete write off. I finally left my apartment at about 8 when D came to get me because my car was still at her house from Saturday night. I didn't even want to do that, but knew I needed my car.

So, things with NewGuy went well Friday except that I was exhausted. I had gotten up early that morning for the gym and had gone to hot yoga after work. By the time we ate dinner and shared a bottle of wine I was falling asleep on the couch while trying to watch a movie. I ended up crashing at his place (I think we were in bed before midnight!) We got up Saturday morning and went for a walk and then went for breakfast before I went home. I decided to hit up hot yoga and then went to the gym (I was feeling rather peppy it seems!) Here is where things are at with NewGuy...I like him, but I am at the point of doubting the whole thing and I am busy picking wholes in the relationship. Here is the thing...he is sweet. I mean incredibly sweet and gentlemanly. I know most of you are saying...what is wrong with that? Well, the thing is I think when he sees more of me I will freak the fuck out of him. He has not seen me with my friends and I really haven't explained to him the dynamic there. On the other hand, I have said more than 5 times that I want a guy who is not a partier and who can settle me down. Someone who is not Mr Yaletown and doesn't spend every night in the bar. I am trying to take things slow and just let them unfold themselves...I need to learn to turn my brain off!

Here is an example of how sweet he is...He emails me all day from work to say hi, to tell me he misses me, to tell me he can't wait to see me, etc. It is Wednesday and he wanted to know what I am doing this weekend so he could make plans for us. I told him I am busy Friday, so he asked if I would like to go bowling on Saturday night with him. I am sure I just heard a collective laugh from my friends about that. Bowling? Really? I am sure it will be very fun and I am sure my wallet and liver will love me for it, but c'mon...are we going on a date or to an 8 year old's birthday party? OK, that is mean. I actually think it is pretty damn sweet...just not sure this is me. Stay tuned...

We have had no conversations about dating other people or anything like that (obviously, we are only on date 3). Someone who I was quite interested in before meeting NewGuy got in touch this week and is now back in town and wants to get together. I think at this point I want to keep options open, so I told him I would be up for a drink at some point. I know this is probably not a good idea, but old habits die hard my friends.

Anyway, Saturday night ended up being very quiet. I went over to D's and we hung out with T for her birthday. We had some wine and watched TV and chatted. We ordered food, but I was not in the mood for eating. I had a little cheesecake and that was it. I am not sure what the hell was wrong with me because I had worked out twice that day and not eaten afterwards. I got to R2 on Sunday for Super Bowl and realized I hadn't eaten since breakfast Saturday morning. I need to do that more often!

Now that football is over for another 7 months I need suggestions on things to do on Sundays. I hate it when there is no football! JG and I have set a date to sit down with some beer and brainstorm ideas for Sunday Fundays. At least he went out on a high...his team won!

So, the rest of this week is shaping up to be very quiet. I am actually back working in the office this week. We ended up keeping it one more month, so I am going to work from home some and from the office some. I actually kind of like switching it up like that.

Confused more than ever...Nic!

Friday? Whatevs!

2009-01-30T10:27:00.000-08:00

So, it is Friday. Fridays are good because the whole weekend lies ahead with promises of drunken debauchery and good times. This is officially my last day working in my office. We gave it up and so starting Monday I will be working from home. I am 50/50 on this right now. Here is the problem...you know what I said about Friday's above? When I work from home I think every day is Friday. Do you see where this is going? Last time I worked from home I became somewhat of an alcoholic...I guess not in the technical sense. I wasn't waking up in the morning and cracking a beer or anything. But, after being at home all day alone I often went out on a random Monday or Tuesday night because I needed human contact. I am definitely taking things more seriously this time. My first plan of attack is to actually set up an office in my apartment. I can't do the laptop on my lap in front of the TV. I know this does nothing for productivity. I am going to make a fun home office that I look forward to sitting at for 8 hours (OK, probably more like 5, but I am efficient bitches!) I am also going to keep my routine that I have now. I will get up early and workout, come home and shower, put on makeup and get dressed and have breakfast. I think this will put me in a working state of mind. I will also do hot yoga (more on this later) a few nights a week. After a hot yoga session the last thing you want to do is go out. So, there is my plan in writing...now that it is in the public domain I must adhere to it. I am accountable to you bitches!

So I have become one of those annoying people who does yoga. Previous to this week I had done yoga once and I did not like it. Laying on a mat trying to get "centered" for 5 minutes does not constitute working out to me. I was super fidgety the whole time and just didn't get it. I also wasn't super impressed with the other participants, including the gay couple who were beside me...they were stretching before the class (seems redundant, no?) and the one guy looks at his boyfriend who is in a split and exclaims "Oh, Tom your ball is hanging out". Good f'n lord! Any "sport" that involves men wearing shorts short enough that their balls can flop out at any given moment is probably not for me. That was until this week. A friend of mine, LA, has been doing the hot yoga for a few weeks and is raving about it and convinced me to try it. I got up the nerve to do it Tuesday evening. Well, after the class, I was hooked and up at 5:30 Wednesday morning to do it again. I have gone 3 times in 3 days and planning on going today and tomorrow as well. I am not sure why I like being in a 40 degree room working out, sweating like a pig, looking like a tomato with love handles, but there is something about it that is super cathartic. I think I know what the big deal is now and I think I may have even gotten centered last night! The real reason I think I am liking it is because of said love handles. I am going to see how many sessions it takes for them to fall off my body.

So the new workout plan is cardio and weights in the mornings and hot yoga in the evenings. It seems to be a good balance and I am going to stick with it for a while and see what happens. I dare to say I even feel gasp...healthy! I think I must be in a time of rebirth right now. I feel renewed and energized. My workout schedule is finely tuned and I am loving it. I am finally getting ahead financially after The Summer of Nic. I paid off almost all my outstanding debt yesterday. I cut my hair last night and went back to Super Blonde Nic (always makes me hapy) and I swear I feel like the haircut dropped negative energy off my body! My eating is so/so right now, but I have also been on the go every single night, so considering that it is actually pretty damn good. I am not doing any of the french fries or shit like that. I have also really had a realization that negative energy is such a waste of time and takes up a spot in your life that could be used for good things. I have cut a few people out of my life that were super negative and I realized that good things happen when they are not around. I can look at these people subjectively now and it all just makes sense. The reason bad things keep happening to these people is that they allow it to happen and negativity attracts negativity. I should know...I have been there and I am making a conscious decision to not allow it anymore. It isn't like I can flip a switch and I know I have to not allow myself to slip into old habits, but at least I have seen the light and now understand some of my past behaviours. This post is becoming a little too new age and hippy for my liking, so on to some dirt.

New Guy is making me dinner tonight. This will be our 3rd date (first 3rd date in a VERY long time!) Neither of us is in a hurry for anything serious, so we are just taking our time and seeing what happens. I think tonight will be good because it is just us, so we will really have a chance to get to know each other better. He gets no name and no more mention for a while though...unless it fails dismally tonight and I have an awesome story to tell about it! I think I must like him somewhat because I have had 3 invites to really fun things tonight and have not felt bad turning them all down in favour of his company. Sad that that is my gauge, but for those that know me missing out is a fear of mine!

Saturday it is Girl T's birthday and we are going to do the 4 girls night in at DA's. I thin it will be wine, Indian food and UFC (if I have my way, anyway) The ladies might not be good with the fight, but too bad! Sunday is Super Bowl and you know how excited that makes me. I just wish one of my teams had gone farther, but I guess it wasn't meant to be. I am Steelers all the way! Myself and 7 other girls are going to G for the big event. I think girl's Sunday Funday Super Bowl is going to be so fun. They are having a big party at the bar with wet tshirt contests (amateur and pro) and all sorts of ridiculousness in between. It should be a good time.

Funny items of yesterday...Me asking Lea how long ago she dated a certain ex of hers. You see when she dated said ex I met his friend at the same time who was, how should I say this, rather persistent. I wasn't interested, but he tried...hard. Anyway, we met 5 years ago and we have since stayed friends and I see him out and about fairly often. I ran into him at the gym Tuesday morning and we chatted a bit...he also works from home, so I said we have to plan lunches or coffee once every couple of weeks to get out of the house. He agreed wholeheartedly. I guess he took this to mean something though because he proceeded to call me twice and text me twice Wednesday night - here we go again! My MSN conversation with Lea went something like this:

Me: How long ago did you date ex?
Lea: About 5 years ago, why?
Me: I just wondering how long ex's friend has had a crush for. I guess 5 years is now just innocent stalking...if there was going to be any beheading I am sure it would have happened by year 3.

Also, after 90 minutes of hot yoga and then a hair appointment last night I was driving home and a guy crossing the street in front of my car stopped looked at me and smiled and winked and gave me the universal sign for roll down your window. He was cute and normal looking (and definitely not gay, which is a rarity in my neighborhood), so I did. He looked at me and said "you're so cute" and then just kept walking. I don't know if this has ever happened to you, but seriously next time you see someone that you think is cute/hot whatever...tell them! It really made my night! I am so going onto Craigslist Missed Connections today to see if he posted anything! haha.

Happy Super Bowl weekend bitches. May you eat more bacon than is allowable by the Canadian Food Guide!

I'm Baaaack

2009-01-27T13:45:00.000-08:00

That was a bit of a hiatus! I guess I haven't been in a blogging mood...for quite some time. I have thought about coming back quite a few times and then just sort of lost interest before actually logging in. I think the priorities in my life have changed somewhat as well. Instead of trying to fight of social events (during the week, of course) I know embrace them and try to have something of a plan most nights, so it doesn't leave much downtime to write. Anyway, here is a quick recap of the last 9 months:

-New job (actually probably the 2nd new job since the last post)
-Took most of the summer off, which completely rocked. Probably one of the best summers I have ever had
-Have dated many, many men; as per usual most were first dates and then I did the fade out in true Nic fashion
-Have lost and maintained my weight
-Rededicated myself to the gym and now have a strict 5 day/week schedule
-Have completely ended things with T (I only mention this because when looking back on this blog I realize how ridiculous we were). We haven't been together romantically in a long time, but see each other very sporadically for a catch up. Translation: he calls to see me when things aren't going well with his new girlfriend.
-Due to the Summer of Nic not much travel has taken place, but I am planning quite a bit this year.

That pretty miuch sums it up. My life has become boring! Though if I could litereally sit here and tell you about each and every date I have had since last April you would be reading for about FOREVER! There have been a lot of dates and they have come from many different places: guys I have met out and about (again being that it was the Summer of Nic, I was out and about a lot), online guys (this picked up only in the last few months), guys who are friends of friends on Facebook (this was the most surprising area of new dates - I had never thought of this avenue for dating, but guys did!) I had 4 different guys ask me out after seeing me in friend's pics on Facebook. All great guys, but they were all old too.

Off the top of my head here is a list of guys who I dated last year:
-Guy who lied about his age (made himself younger by 5 years) and his height (dude was a f'n munchkin) and who also happened to know T. Loser! Though he did take me to a game, which was the main reason I went. Karma is a bitch my friends; worst game of the season!
-Guy who fell in love on our first date and asked me to not see other people so we could see where it would go. We went out again the next night and he could not have been less enthusiastic about it. Never spoke to him again.
-Guy who was acually alright, but then asked if I was interested in his friend whowas interested after seeing me on Facebook...I said maybe and then he he freaked...ummmm OK psycho...NEXT!
-Guy who sold sporting goods and every time he said balls I laughed until at the end of the date I had tears rolling down my face and he was ready to kill me.
-Guy who was really weird and not as good looking as I remembered. No connection whatsoever (you think he would have gotten the hint I was not interested after trying to leave after 15 minutes). Stupid me, I allowed him to talk me into a drink...dude would not shut up; I had my jacket on and done up and my purse in my lap and he just wouldn't stop. I finally put my hands up in a time out fashion and told him my eyes were heavy and it was time to go. Guy texts me 2 days later with this message "Had a horrible time. Never want to see you again...Kidding ;) Can't wait to see you again". WTF???? I forwarded his own message back to him but without the ending part.
-Guy who thought he was a bad boy, but was really so not. He walked me home and gave me a hug and grabbed my ass a little on me saying good bye. He texted me about 2 weeks later to see if I was really offended by the ass grab. If he only knew - I don't even think I would have batted an eye if he had grabbed my boob!
-Guy who took me hiking and we got caught in a huge storm and I was not wearing anything waterproof. I had booty shorts under capri sweatpants. I had to get naked on the trail and give him my shorts to put in his waterproof jacket for me so I had something to put on once we got back (though at that point we were both questioning if we would make it back). I told him not to be too concerned because I had a lighter...his response "what are you going to light?" Good point. Upon making it back in the blowing rain I promptly dropped the dry shorts in a puddle while trying to put them on (naked in the parking lot) and had to drive home wrapped in a scuzzy dog blanket completely naked. He bought me beer though, so it made it somehwat better.
-Guy who I met at amazing outdoor concert. I may have been slightly under the influence and somehow managed to pick up my complete opposite in the beer garden. He also didn't work, so I thought it would be fun to have someone to hang out with upon our return. We went hiking and he tried to hold my hand while I was crossing a stream...Game Over! He was dropping me off after the hike and I said I was going to go home and nap to which he asked if he could join...I said no and I never heard from him again.
-Guy who said he couldn't see me again because he saw me out at local hangout with a group of friends and he didn't like one of those said friends. The friend in question is an idiot, but he is a friend of a friend and anyone that crazy is immediately deleted from the cell phone.
-Guy from a country far away who told me he likes cougars on our date (so NOT a cougar) and then talked about how much the Canucks suck. It's not that I didn't agree, but if you don't know the first thing about the sport...shut the F up!
-Guy who saw me on Facebook and asked me out. After a few drinks he asked if I wanted to go by XYZ bar down the street because his friend was celebrating his birthday there. INteresting....a guy I had gone out with twice (next story) had invited me to XYZ bar for birthday celebrations that very evening. I confirmed it was the same person and explained to Facebook dude I couldn't go by there because this guy was still interested in me and I didn't think it would be very nice to show up at his bday with another guy. I asked Facebook Dude how they knew each other...they play volleyball together at Wreck. I threw up in my mouth a little thinking about the 2 of them spiking volleyballs on each other in the nude!
-Birthday Guy from previous story. Set up by someone I thought I could trust. He actually came out and met us on a girl's night - he had a bunch of guys at his place and I thought his whole crew was coming with...no - he left the guys at his place and came by himslef....weird! We ditched him at some point in the night and he came out and met us on a patio the next day after I had already been there for a number of hours. He took me for dinner and I thought I had a good time, but couldn't completely remember, so I decided to give it one more shot when he asked me over for dinner the next night. Where to start???? 38, roommate, frat house looking place, a cat, didn't make any sort of conversation with me (not one question!), his roommate and buddy come over and buddy sat on the other side of me on the couch, I was super weirded out and told him I had to go. He walked me to the door and then asked if I wanted to come upstairs for a bit. I seriously felt like I was 12. I did the fake yawn and ran for it.
-Guy I went out with and went to a sports bar with (side point: we talked sports the entire date...not one personal question of any kind) and had a friend as my server. He told me about the Super Bowl party they were throwing and said one of his waitresses who is a blonde with big boobs would be singing...he then said...she kind of looks like you. Just what first date guy wants to hear! There was also some stripper talk passed between us that I think straightlaced guy didn't find amusing.

There are so many more...there have also been the following cities, nations, states and provinces represented: Israel, Alaska, Calgary, Newfoundland, Toronto (and myriads of small towns in and around it), Regina, Winnipeg, Los Angeles, New York, Australia, Ireland, England, Wales, New Zealand, Denver, a small town above the Artic Circle that has a lot of consonants.

Of course of them all the one I think is my soul mate is a) married b) has kids c) lives in another province and d) is hot, rich, funny and awesome. Always the way! There is a new contender on the scene, but he will reamin nameless for a while. No jinxing it!

Hope you feel all caught up now...I just realized how much of a slut this post makes me sound like! Awesome.

If this isn't sporadic I am not sure what is

2008-04-25T13:23:00.001-07:00

Ya, I decided I was well overdue for a post. Last time I wrote I was lamenting the dating scene (a recurring theme in my life). Since then not a whole lot has changed except that I haven't really been dating. I have been pursued by about every ex I have ever had - this is also a recurring them in my life. I am not sure why, but for about 2 weeks every 6 months every ex I have ever had comes out of the woodwork and gets in touch. They are always in it for the same thing too...yup, sex! I don't get it (well, I guess I do in a way - I am a tiger in the sack after all), but what do these guys think? We obviously don't see each other for a reason - why would I jump into bed with you just because you are experiencing a dry spell? Do they think women are that dumb and easy? Let's be serious here...every woman (OK, 98% of women) can get laid any time any day they want. I could go into any Starbucks in the city right now and be shagging a random within an hour guaranteed (and I am wearing ugly jeans and flats right now and didn't wash my hair this morning). Obviously this isn't the case for men. As women we hold the proverbial sex stop sign. I don't need a random text after midnight asking to "get together sometime" - you are about as transparent as Scotch Tape my friend!

It doesn't help that when I relayed this information to my nothing-but-platonic ex T he told me that people get what they put out to others. Essentially telling me I put out some sort of drunken slut vibe. Good to know! In his defense I don't think that's how he meant it and he did send me an "I'm sorry" text the next day. This could also be because he has been laid up for the past 4 weeks and won't be better for another 2-3 months and I am his main life line for companionship. Actually, I think I am important for one main thing to him - I am his bringer of booze (hard to make trips to the liquor store on crutches!) Anyway, that was kind of beside the story - interesting guy information though and I have to say I don't think he is entirely wrong!

On that note I am not drinking for the next 4-6 weeks. I had already made this decision prior to T's proclamation, so don't think I care that much about what he says...I am back dieting and trying to drop 15-20 pounds before the start of bikini season. Just a little dust off really.

Anyway, there was a random bump in with an ex who has been on my mind a lot lately, so that exchange was not discouraged. He was probably my one and only whirlwind relationship. Super intense for the 3 months we were together. We had an instant attraction, a ton of fun together and he got along with all of my friends and family. There were some problems, the main one being his work schedule was not in tune with mine and we never saw each other, so I didn't see the point of carrying on. The weirdest part of this relationship is once we called it off we never spoke. That is odd for me. I think I may have a need for people to like me no matter what. Probably explains K & T still being two of my best friends! Anyway, we bumped into each other in a bar last week and ended up hanging out all night and catching up. It was really good to see him and he obviously felt the same way. We have been talking since, but I quickly got suspicious that something wasn't quite right. My suspicions were correct and as far as I can tell he is dating someone. I am not sure if it is serious or what is going on there, but we are meeting early next week to talk about things. I am wondering if I should just walk away though. I don't need the drama and I am not into fighting for a guy - especially one I already had and discarded. He is good, but not THAT good. I have the weekend of boring sobriety to ponder where this will go.

I am not sure if I am going to keep the posting up or not, but feel free to check back and see how much my dating life sucks in the coming months!

Full Circle

2008-01-21T12:58:00.000-08:00

When I started blogging many many moons ago it was an idea that J, an ex coworker, gave me. He figured my life was so crazy that I needed a forum to keep track of the craziness, which at the time involved a lot of dating and even more partying. It was definitely at the height of my wild years. In the last 2 years I have slowed down quite a bit - one has to grow up sometime! I am definitely not a saint now, but comparatively I would say I am now down to about 25% of the craziness that once was. Anyway, my point being that I have recently stuck my big toe back into the dating pool. Again, this is about 25% of what I was blogging about many years ago when not only did I have my big toe in the dating pool, but I had dove in face first and had no problems blogging about most any detail of all of these dates, which was usually fun because I had my fair share of ridiculous you-will-never-believe-what-happened-on-my-date-last-night kind of stories.

I am not one to go into major detail anymore - for my own privacy because let's be serious I don't care about the privacy of a random guy I decided to have lunch with. Anyway, I had a grand total of 3 dates last week (2 on the same day...I know, horrible, but one was postponed from a previous day, so there wasn't much I could do).

Date 1: Pros: cute, nice, easy to talk to, funny, admired me plenty (c'mon, it's nice once in a while), paid for lunch
Cons: Recently seperated, 2 kids (one is a TEENAGER), lives in a far off suburb (I don't own a vehicle to get out to said suburb and really wouldn't ever want to visit there anyway), seemed to be trying to impress me a little too much, hasn't dated really ever (was married young)

We spoke yesterday and I gave him my post date feedback (this is also something that has changed since my younger years - back then if I didn't want to see the person again I would just avoid their calls and hope they would disappear from the face of the earth - now I am honest about how I feel - go figure! My results of this approach have been mixed and to be honest I think it is easier to go the avoid route and I may go back to that at some point soon) I let him know that the cons (as listed above) were probably going to prevent us from ever having a relationship that would be anything meaningful and even though I did liked him and there was a bit of a spark at lunch I don't really want to waste anyone's time (translation: I don't want to waste MY time). End result: I am going out with him for lunch sometime this week - see being honest just gives them a chance to talk you into more dates! ARGH!

Date 2: Pros: I got drunk on the date (probably not a pro for him, but a bonus for me - I only had a couple glasss of wine, but that was coupled with no food and not much in the drinking department these days and next thing you know I am telling him my deepest, darkest secrets!), he was nice, decent looking, able to hold a conversation.
Cons: I paid for all of my drinks (and half the food we shared), I wasn't sure I was physically attracted to him, he asked to see me again the next night (a little too soon, wouldn't you say??)
The aftermath: I woke up hungover on Friday and had to make my bleary-eyed way to the office. He texted me to say thanks for a good night and we have to do it again. I would be open to it, but wouldn't go out of my way to make other plans. He called yesterday and left me a message to say hi. I have yet to call him back. Undecided on this one still.

Date 3: Pros: Tall, good looking, doctor, great personality (we have 2 hour phone conversations really easily), funny, interesting past, easy to talk to, honest, did I mention tall???
Cons: didn't get a romantic feeling from the date at all - it seemed like two old friends catching up over a quick lunch. It was a lunch date though, so it isn't exactly a romantic setting and to be honest, i was pretty wrapped up in the big screen showing football playoffs in front of me. I am sure that impressed him. We left it at "we should do this again", which I am fairly certain means we will never see each other again, which makes me sad because he is a doctor that I am in need of right now and he actually said he could end my ankle issues for me. Maybe I should book an appointment with him - OK, that would be very stalkerish...scratch that!

After lunch with #3 I went straight to T's for more football and a couple beers. Having a fall back is probably not a good thing, but it does make me realize one thing. I shouldn't be dating right now. I am still in love with T and it isn't fair for any of these guys when in reality they don't really have a wholehearted chance with me because I am not 100% into dating when I know I have T there that is really like a boyfriend, just not one I see 5 days a week. T and I went out on Friday night and he made a comment about how he had texted me the night before and for the first time since we had known each other I didn't respond. I told him I had been on a date and that's why I didn't respond. That threw him for a bit of a loop, but we aren't in a place to not see other people, so he was understanding. I think it has made him a wee bit more attentive too! haha - always the way.

So there is the mess that is my mind (and heart) right now.

The weekend was an awesome one! Friday night, T and I had a great date - drive in the car, dinner out and then back to his place to relax in bed with TV and an early night.

Saturday (for the second weekend in a row) I was up bright and early to head home and get geared up for our new "Girl's Adventure Club" outing. Last weekend it was snowshoeing, this week was skiing. I hadn't skiied in a LONG time (over 10 years), so I was a little apprehensive, but I have been wanting to get back into it for the last few years, so I figured this was a good time to do it. I am so glad I did. It was amazing! The day ended up being gorgeous - sunny and warm and the powder was the best I had ever skiied in. The parts that sucked: tweaking my already sprained ankle...AGAIN, ending up on a black diamond on the first run of the day (not fun at all!) and bruising my shin horribly from bad rental boots. The best parts: the weather, the great company of the girls (amazing what stories can come out on a quad chair!) and the cold beer with lunch! Oh also girls in Vancouver - never complain about no men in this city - go skiing on a Saturday...good lord the talent was everywhere and we were outnumbered at least 5 to 1. Even if you don't ski go buy yourself a hot little ski number and rent some boots and just walk around the pub for a few hours - I am telling you, you won't be disappointed!

We headed back to the city somewhat early because we all had appointments - I went and booked myself an appointment on Thursday afternoon for hair extensions!!! I could not be more excited! I am really sick of the too short hair and decided I can't wait to grow it out, so problem solved. Jilly accompanied me and after we headed into Yaletown - all the girls were getting a Blo and because I have no hair anymore I went next door and got my makeup done instead in preparation for the big girl's night that night.

I went home and got a bunch of food and booze ready and then waited as about 12 girls came by for a night of food and wine. It was a total blast. The night made me realize I know A LOT of blondes. Of the 12 girls, there were 2 brunettes (one is Asian, so you can't even really count her) and the rest...all blondes! Very bizarre. We went to Glowbal for a bit and then on to Bar Yawn where my sprained ankle was getting in the way of my enjoyment so I headed home. Walking in my stilettos on the sprained ankle was not fun at all. I got home and crashed.

Yesterday was doctor date and then T's for football and beer.

Update: The Good Doctor (TGD) just texted me, so perhaps that was a heartfelt :we should do this again". I was going to leave it up to him to contact me and he has, so we'll see what happens. I would really enjoy it if he would fix my ankle for me. I wonder if that is like a 3rd date request????

Really?

2008-01-10T10:51:00.000-08:00

Cancun rocked. It wasn't long enough (though my stomach would tell you otherwise). The weather wasn't amazing. The golf carts on a secluded island very drunk were. Hanging with the ex was fine. Eating at Margaritaville wasn't. The vodka pineapples rocked. The Jagermesiter didn't. New Years was awesome. Lying in bed all night alone 2 nights later wasn't. Braids will never be in fashion unless you invent a time machine and go back to 1979 and run with Bo Derek in 10.

Also, I am tired, so very tired and want to hibernate the rest of the winter. It is going to be a few months of not a lot. I am thinking the next big day for me will be Super Bowl. It is going to be soooo good this year!

Also, if you are a guy and you HAVE to own a cat you shouldn't really post pictures of them or you with them on any website of any sort...least of all a dating site! Yikes!

Also, sever dehydration is no fun at all!

What is even less fun? Kitchen fires and cleaning up a mess left by a fire extinguisher. Though I am very thankful I had said extinguisher now and it is on my immediate to do list to go out and replace the one I used to extinguish my toaster oven and kitchen cupboards. Shhhhh...don't tell Kris about this!!

.com

2007-12-20T09:50:00.000-08:00

You did not grow up in the dot com era if you have never had this text conversation, which I may or may not have just had with J:

Me: Happy belated...I suck, sorry I missed it
J: how the hell are you Adams

PS - J is the only person in my life that calls me Adams and I love it!!!

Me: Very hungover (maybe still drunk) going out with {name redacted - ex coworker} may need a buffer...you in?
J: May have other plans but call me later
Me: OK, going to nap on office floor now. I have grown up so much...remember when I used to have to nap on the communal leather couch that [names redacted] and countless others had sex on?
j: That's kicking old school Adams...nice!

I feel sorry for people that never got to experience that.

PS - I hate myself right now.

Let's see how long I can make a post

2007-12-19T10:15:00.000-08:00

Well, I am ashamed at my lack of posting. It has been an eventful few weeks and I highly doubt I will be able ot update everything, but I am going to try and hit on a few highlights.

Chicago was amazing...truly amazing. I am on the fence still, but it may beat out New York for favorite city! The food was great, amazing sites, good nightlife, but what really made the city was the people. They are so friendly and warm that is almost feels like, well...you're in Canada! Dale tagged along on the trip and we had a great time. The shopping was seriously the best shopping ever. We shopped for over 5 hours one day and only hit about 4 stores. Nordstrom Rack was to die for. I got some crazy deals there...a dress for $6, FCUK pants for $10 and all sorts of craziness in between.

Dale's first night there was a bit of a nightmare that I don't want to relive, but I will say 4oz martinis are NOT a good idea when one is staying in a room with a marble bathroom. After a call to 1-800-dentist Tuesday morning we were pretty much squared away (except for the concussion and bruising, of course).

The conference I was there for was awesome. I learned a ton and met some great people. Outside the conference, Dale and I had some amazing meals (I can't even do Carnivale justice by describing it; trust me, if you are ever in Chicago go there!). We also spent a lot of time in the Viagra Triangle, which rightly lived up to its name. We happened to meet Chicago's best bartender, Mark who worked at one of the VT's bars and because he is an amazing bartender and all around great guy we hung out at Gobsins a few nights. We even did an after bar with him and one of his servers one night - really great guys.

I, of course, loved that we went to a Canucks game while there. It helped that they won, but it was very strange. The arena is huge (like 22,000) and I think there were less than 10,000 people at the game. It was so quiet and just strange. They really need some serious PR for their team. It sounds like with their new ownership they will get things going again though.

After all the delays I didn't get home until 2:30 in the morning on Saturday morning (I was supposed to be in at 11pm Friday). Getting into the airport on the Friday night at 1:30am on the night everyone has their Christmas party is not a good idea. We waited over a half hour for a cab...at the airport! It was crazy and freezing cold!

Saturday night was pretty lazy and we pretty much went to Tommy's, ordered in food and watched the fight.

Sunday I went out to mom and dad's in the morning for Dad's birthday brunch. We ate and did some shopping and then just hung out at mom and dad's for a bit...very chill.

Last week was quiet...just working/gym/dinner/sleep for the most part. I saw T on Thursday night and we had some wine, ordered dinner and watched Planet Earth...the most amazing DVD series ever!

Friday night a bunch of us went for dinner with Tommy and Mike at a new restaurant in Yaletown, which was really good. Of course, we ended up at Glowbal and then Republic for more damn bottle service. The night ended very late with Dale, Sarah and I at Tommy's passed out. He drove us all home in the morning and I didn't do a whole lot for the rest of the day until...

BON JOVI SATURDAY NIGHT. The concert was awesome and having the box made it even better. You don't realize how great it is until you have 3 or 6 beers and you take two steps to go to the bathroom instead of wading through 17,000 people from Surrey to get to the toilet.

After the concert I met up with Toad and we went over to his haunt then to a small after party then back to my place...another very late night. Sunday was pretty much a write off except for my massage, which left me in more pain than before going!

This week so far has been just work, gym and sleeping. I have a hair cut tonight and then some errands to run and an early night because I am training at 6am tomorrow. Ugh! This weekend should be quiet. T and I are doing dinner on Friday his birthday and more than likely our final goodbye as it seems that our relationship has now run its course. It was fun while it lasted.

Happy Holidays to all!!!

Weekending

2007-11-30T14:11:00.000-08:00

Friday again! Yeah! I will be leaving the country Sunday morning for a week in Chi town for a conference that I am very excited about. This will be my first time in Chicago as well; exploring a new city is alway fun.

This week has been good and somewhat boozy. Saturday night Mark and Dale threw a shindig for my birthday that was both well attended and fun. How can rockin out to Journey ever be a bad thing, right? It was a late night and I spent most of Sunday morning and early afternoon in bed with Dale who was suffering a fairly severe hangover. Mark even brought us fast food in bed (heavenly). T was on his way home from his weekend away and I asked if he could swing by and grab me on his way home, which he did (and I was very grateful for). Little did we know the damn Santa parade was on and we ended up getting stuck in traffic for about FOREVER! It was so painful. The entire time we were stuck I just kept saying "all I want is a shower". I finally made it home (T ended up parking the Porsche and walking home to avoid more pain) and immediately stripped and jumped in the shower to discover no hot water. Oh good lord - I almost ripped down my shower curtain in fury! Luckily T hadn't made it to the gym yet and I was able to pack a bag and head to his place for my long awaited shower. T went to the gym and I went shopping to grab ingredients for our favorite meal (rack of lamb - so yummy) and then just hung out at his place. We had an awesome dinner with an even better bottle of Chateau Neuf de Pape that someone gave me for my birthday (I still don't know who it was, but thank you to whoever gave it to me!!) We watched a subpar movie after dinner and then off to bed.

Monday I was exhausted and didn't do much. Tuesday was my actual birthday and T took me out for an amazing meal and another favorite bottle of wine Osoyoos La Rose. We took our time and just had a great night. After dessert we went downstairs to the bar area and had some port and watched the hockey game. This is usually the point in the evening we have to get home otherwise we would most certainly get arrested for public indecency. It is still like when we first met when we go out like that. We went back to his place and laid in bed and watched Seinfeld and giggle until we fell asleep (pretty much the perfect night!) I fell asleep to T whispering in my ear how much he loves me and that he was glad I wanted to celebrate my birthday with him. How sweet!!! Too bad we can never be together. haha.

Wednesday was gym and bed and last night my dream game was on...Green Bay vs Dallas. Unfort, Favre got hurt and my Packers lost, but it was a good game all the same. I watched the game at Todd's with him and Erin and Tina came by later on. We watched the hockey game after the football game and ordered pizza. I didn't drink too much and woke up hungover this morning. I can't tell anyone though because I am having a girl's night/birthday surprise night with Jill, Sarah and Dale. Jill would kill me if she knew I wasn't feeling my normal self. I think I know what the surprise is, but I will wait until next week to fill you all in on what goes down. All I know is we are starting at 5:30, which could be a recipe for disaster! I am looking forward to a night out with the girls. So much so that I have decided to leave work at 3 today to go do some shopping before heading home to get pretty tonight.

Tomorrow I have no plans, but have to catch an 8am flight Sunday morning, so I am thinking a whole lot of nothing is probably best. I may go to Jess's Christmas party, but not sure about that yet.

Dale will be in Chicago with me next week and apparently we have a sweet hookup for the most popular bar/resto in town, so that should be fun. I am also making her come to the Canucks game there. She will not be OK with that, but too damn bad!

I am out...

One more thing

2007-11-22T13:23:00.000-08:00

Please, for the love of god, please stop feeling sorry for the Polish man who died at the airport after being tasered. First off, if he had been anywhere else in the world and behaved in the same manner he did here, he would have been shot, on the spot, no questions asked. Second, the police have no reason to overuse force. Yes there was a language barrier that I am sure lead to the confusion going on, but is that the police's fault? Kind of don't think so. Where is Canadian Customs in all of this? Shouldn't they be answering some of these questions. If they had been better staffed I doubt this would have happened. Having said that I think this needs to just be chalked up to an unfortunate incident. If the dead man wasn't completely out of his mind enraged, he may not have died from a tasering either. So many things leading to this, but let's be serious people...do you really think the polics wanted him to die??? Of course not! I am ready start a sympathetic to the police group on Facebook, but fear the repurcussions of a city full of bleeding hearts! Let's move on to more important things...like my birthday...discuss! (I am a medium, love red wine and champagne and vodka and most ports and rye and beer, so any of the above would make a lovely gift.)

Almost another weekend!

2007-11-22T12:12:00.000-08:00

Last weekend was a good one...I have three words that sum up the weekend: bottle service bad!! Good lord - old bosses have brough this usually reserved for Vegas tradition to Vancouver and I don't think it is a good idea. Three nights a year in Vegas I can do. Random Friday AND Saturday night...not so much. No table of people (no matter how large) should consume 3 bottles of Grey Goose. I am going to have to ask them to not be my friend anymore if this continues. Actually, I may have to ask everyone I know to not be my friends anymore after the past few months. Dale and I had this conversation last weekend:

me: what do you think normal people do on weekends?
Dale: ummm, probably go for nice dinners and maybe have one or two glasses of wine and then go home to bed. They probably get up and do the Grind in the morning and stuff.
me: Do you think they go bowling and to movies and stuff?
Dale: probably...maybe even art galleries or plays
me: hmmmm, no wonder I have decided to never be "normal"

Pretty sad that we don't actually know what to do if we aren't out and at three different bars every weekend night. I stayed home a few Saturdays ago and it was so very boring!!

Went over to Dark's last night for a delicious roast beef dinner prepared by Dale. We then perused every website available to find some good travel deals and it looks like we may have found a trip suitable for everyone at a lovely hotel called PairaAnuses. OK, it isn't really called that, but after a few bottles of wine that was the way funnier way to pronounce the hotel name. It looks like a go...so excited!!

This is my horoscope today:

Sagittarius: It's time to cut someone out of your life. It will be sad and painful, but they are doing you no good and you can't let them continue to hurt you..

Hmmmm....very interesting indeed. I wonder who that could possibly be??? Funny thing is the person I am thinking is the same sign as me...what are the chances that he is sitting at his desk totally thinking the exact same thing about me right now? Haha. We can discuss at dinner this evening! haha

In other rather less exciting news, it is my birthday next week. Ya, another year older! So, not looking forward to being in the mid part of my thirties - at least I can still say early thirties - I may even try to get away with very late twenties! Birthdays don't bother me much, so not too worried about it...yet! No one ever told me I would be the proud owner of wrinkles and zits though! Mark and Dale are throwing a bash at their house to commemorate me getting old. It should be fun, I am quite looking forward to it. Any excuse for a martini bar, I always say!

I did get asked out on a date this week and I think I am going to go. Considering all I know about this guy is what he does (not too overly thrilled with his occupation, but it is an honourable one at least) and that he used to play in the CFL and loves football, I don't know much, but he is cute and seems nice and at the very least I know I can kill a quick lunch with an hour of football talk, so it should be OK!

Working from home tomorrow to try and get my shit in order for 2008 - so very overwhelmed with planning right now. I actually almost cried at my desk yesterday. I didn't even know I was capable of those feelings. Starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel (after 3 - 12 hour days this week).

I passed pretty much everyone I saw on my walk to work today. I even do that quicker than everyone else and with a sprained ankle!!! Go me!!

I keep trying to pull a fast one on my liver

2007-11-14T13:12:00.000-08:00

Another weekend of ridiculous debauchery. Friday and Saturday sort of blur into one as I didn't get home Saturday morning until ridiculous o'clock (after another late night feeding at the Denny's) and then Dale, Marn and I started in on one of 5 bottles of wine at about 2pm after picking up Marn from the ferry. We decided lunch on the Glowbal patio would be lovely, which it was; however, we may not have needed the 3 bottles of wine that accompanied it. Jill came by after we were done eating and helped with the 3rd one...thank god! Mon was in the city for a conference, so we went to the Hotel Van to meet her for 2 more bottles of wine. Keep in mind it was about 6pm at this point...not too smart. I got home and had a bath and was even contemplating a nap when Toad and EH showed up with a 26er of vodka and mix. Good lord!! Jill and Sarah came by and we had a fashion show and more drinks until we had to get to Cobre for Sarah's birthday dinner at 9. Dinner was lovely with champagne and more wine, then it was back to Glowbal to meet up with the others and a ridiculous bottle service. I could barely stand at this point and Marn and I called it a night - jumped in a cab and went back to Dale's. She came and met us about a half hour later. Let's just say it was a loooong day!

Sunday and Monday were both very lazy. I pretty much did nothing at all. It is amazing how 2 nights of crazy can tear me down. Anyway, enough about that...

I realized something a long time ago and as I get older I know it is true more and more. I am faster than everyone else at most everything. I am not talking a running race or anything like that, but I mean at the everyday tasks people perform. For instance: I am the quickest user of an ATM, I go to the bathroom quicker than EVERY women and most men, I am always the quickest person in a checkout line, etc. I don't know why these tasks that we should be used to doing take other people so bloody long. I almost snapped at a woman at the ATM on Friday. There was a 5 person lineup and she obviously waited for 10 minutes like a complete idiot because we she got up there it took her 5 solid minutes of rummaging through her purse to find her bank card. Who does that??? You had 10 minutes of twiddling your thumbs...why wouldn't you use this time to get your shit in order? Maybe I just always happen to be in line behind these people? It really pisses me off!

As a kind PSA I would like to remind everyone to make sure you know who you are texting/calling at 2am drunk. There are often more than one person with the same name!

Long Weekend - Yeehaw!

2007-11-09T14:52:00.000-08:00

I so need a weekend of sleep. Will I get it? Probably not, but at least I am going in to the long weekend with high expectations. I will probably end up staying out drinking until the wee hours every night. Wouldn't it be ironic if I ended up not remembering on the Rememberance Day weekend???

One other irony I found this week was the fact that China has issued a travel advisory for Vancouver due to the gang violence that seems to be happening in the city. Not to be racist, but so far all of the shootings have involved those of Asian and Indian descent. Maybe they just urge their most dangerous residents to emigrate here! I guess I shouldn't say too much about that considering that there are 2 Canadian men currently in custody for molesting children in Asia (I guess it goes both ways). I can't even say that because one of these pigs is in Canada now and was granted bail even though he is considered a high risk to reoffend (luckily the loser doesn't have the money to post bail...PHEW!) I love that he is allowed out on bail, but not allowed near any location where children might be...ummmm, isn't that everywhere??? Unless dude plans on spending the next 30 days waiting for his trial in a night club I am quite sure he will have the opportunity to run into children on a daily basis. Our justice system is seriously screwed!!

I digress.

Not sure what the plans are yet for this evening. I am supposed to be going out for a friend's birthday, but I am on the fence. I am taking her out tomorrow night already, so I may just save my pennies (and liver)tonight in order to go crazy tomorrow night. We are going to a newish restaurant that I have been wanting to try since it opened, so I am excited about that. The only problem is the executive chef is kind of slimey and has hit on me quite a few times (he used to work for a friend). I am sure he won't be out in the dining room anyway, so not too worried. I even went out and bought a lovely new dress for the evening. Tip: Bebe is selling everything at their American pricing, which means 33% off!!! I was in heaven!!! Also bought a lovely new black satin trench coat to die for!!

Sunday it looks like Kim will be in town, so the plan is to see her, but again, I may just do a one night weekend this weekend. We'll see how things play out.

Last night was another working evening and then I got convinced to go out and eat. I went because I finally convinced T to try my favorite restaurant in the city, which he loved (I knew he would). I was home by 8 and in bed by 9. A lovely Thursday (much tamer than the last 2!)

I am trying to keep my weekend somewhat unplanned in case I just decide I want to do nothing at all. If anyone believes that would ever happen you are pretty naive! hehe. Marky is in Cabo for a week, so I have a feeling Dale and I may be spending some time together in the next while.

Hopefully next time we meet I will be well-rested after sleeping in for 3 glorious days!

Plan This

2007-11-07T12:36:00.000-08:00

I am caught in planning hell. I have to have all of my goals and estimated numbers for the entire of 2008 done by tomorrow. I started on this a while ago, but have been slowly adding to it until I realized today I have to have this done tomorrow! Needless to say, I will be working on perfecting my report this evening. I really hope all the work I have put into this so far is OK. It has not been a fun process thus far. I don't even know what I am doing tonight let alone a year from now. If I need some work on my numbers I may be calling all of you up to ask you to purchase something from my site (you can always return it in 30 days!).

Last weekend was crazy, which seems to be the norm lately. Friday night culminated in a last night Denny's pig out with Tito, Sarah and Gary. I won't get into the calls to the gyno we made or the million dollars we spent on the stuffy machine, but it was a really funny night what saw me getting home at 5:30 am Saturday morning. Luckily Sarah had all of her dubloons to get home in the cab OK! Satuday was pretty much a write off. I went to a family dinner and then went over to T's to watch the end of the hockey game. I fell asleep before it ended. I was bagged.

I am sure you are all wondering about me going over to T's. Well it is a long story, but rest assured we are not together, but simply still hanging out and doing the things we enjoy doing with each other with no expectations, which is how things were supposed to be from the start. I am glad to say he is the one who called me. haha.

We were up very early Sunday morning (forgot about the damn time change!) and I went home and climbed back into bed for a few hours. Toady and I headed over to his bar to watch the must anticipated Pats-Colts game. I am so sad to say my boy lost. I still love you Manning. I still hate you Brady! At least the game was respectable. Toady and I managed to pack back quite a few beers and people came to meet up with us throughout the day. T even came by after the game. Everyone left early and T and I went to his place for a movie and pizza. I was pretty tired Monday morning.

Funny tidbit from the bar on Sunday. I was standing talking to Dale and an older man at the bar turned to me and said, "You have such a confidence about you that you can't see, but everyone else can". He want on to say, "you command attention in a room and you don't even know it."
As astute as his observations are I didn't have the heart to tell him that I am quite aware of my confidence. I am wondering now if this was just his way of calling me a bitch. Hmmmmm...could have been.

I have been trying to conquer some of my small fears I have this year with pretty good success. As much as I can talk about my confidence I do have areas where I do get nervous. Something that would get me nervous is going to an event by myself and having to approach complete strangers so as not to look like the idiot who is by themself. I think most people would be surprised by this, but I think because I always have a big group of friends around I never find myself in this situation. I have been getting very good with this lately though and have even purposely gone places early when I am meeting someone just so I can sit by myself and have a drink. More often than not, I don't even need to start a conversation - people feel sorry for the lonely, single drinker and approach me. I have become a charity case!

In other sad news I finally went to the doctor yesterday to have my badly-swollen and hurty ankle looked at and it turns out I have a bad sprain. Apparently wearing my tensor under my stilettos is doing nothing for the hurty ankle! Shocking! Apparently I am looking at a 4-6 week recovery! WTF??? She didn't exactly say to stay off of it though - she did say it was good to keep it loose, so I went home, got changed and went off to kickboxing class. I am quite sure this isn't what the doctor ordered, but I can't not go. I am planning another class tonight and training with the trainer tomorrow morning. I swear I will be elevating and icing in between all of this though! If you see me limping around town this weekend don't be surprised. Oh and - YEAH for a long weekend! Mama needs some extra sleep!

Hopefuly booking my week in Cancun tonight! Need the sun badly!

Excited for the upcoming weekend...plans will surely follow on here at some point.

I'm baaaaack (kind of, sort of)

2007-11-01T13:53:00.001-07:00

I have been toying with trying to come back to the blog on a regular basis. I kind of lost my blog love a while back, but writing is part of me and I find myself thinking about blogging more and more these days. It may be because I have been so busy and this is just a great place to get down all my thoughts in a somewhat coherent manner. Lots is going on in the personal and professional life. I am at another new job (yes, I know!!) I really love it and I think the position is finally what I have been looking for. It keeps me very busy, but I like that. I really hope things continue going well with it because I see myself being here a while.

In the personal life I can safely say I am truly single for the first time this year. Even though T and I were never really 100% in a relationship I still didn't consider myself single and wasn't much interested in dating because I had him to fall back on. In the end, I decided that I needed more and I wasn't really sure why I had hung on as long as I did. It is weird how that light can just flick on one day and all of a sudden things are so clear. We haven't spoken since he dropped me off Monday morning. We had the talk Sunday night in bed (probably not too smart), but we both felt like it was time to move on, so we have. We won't speak for a while because with us one phone call turns into hanging out for a weekend and being back at square one and I don't want that now.

I am excited to be completely free once again. I am much more suited to this lifestyle. I am definitely open to dating right now, but I don't think I want much more than that. Who knows that will happen though. I have met a few people in the last while that have caught my attention (and I theirs), but I am keeping things casual and just seeing how they play out. I will really start trying in earnest once my hair has some time to relax and grow out a bit (let's not get into that; I just want to say "don't dye your hair blue...ever!)

I am heading out tonight to the annual jewelery store party (the very one I dropped $3K at last year on my most beautiful watch). I bought myself the watch as an early birthday present and for a treat after being so dedicated in losing my weight. I have managed to keep the weight off (give or take a pound or two) in the last year, so that may mean I will have a new bauble in my future! I don't think that will happen tonight...it looks like it is going to be New Years in Cancun, so I want to save my pennies (literally, that is all I have!) for that. It could be an interesting trip; it looks like Dark, Tito, the ex and myself are going to go. Does anyone else find it odd that I am going away with my ex fiancee? I guess you would have to understand us for it to make sense. I just told my mom and her response was "you guys will get down there, have a few drinks and yada, yada, yada you'll be back together". My answer "You just yada yada'd the best part!" She was not impressed. haha.

I also just found out today that I will be hosting (and cooking) my family's Christmas dinner this year. I have never done one in all of my (almost) 33 years. Dad and I collaborated one year when mom was working and it was damn tasty, so I think I will be fine. I know my mom will be over my shoulder and pushing me out of the kitchen all day anyway, so I know that really most of my job will be putting turkey in oven...I think I can handle that! I feel so grows up!

Tomorrow is a work at home day. We are moving the marketing area around at the office, so my whole staff is out of the office, so I figured I should work remotely too. Plus I have pulled tendons in my left foot so I need to stay home and elevate and ice instead of teetering around the office in stilletos.

Tomorrow night I am doing an undercover wine tasting with some newish friends. All the wine is $20 and under and is covered; everyone votes on their favourite without knowing what is what. I think it should be great and a good way to find some cheap, good wines! I am going to meet up with some others for a night out afterwards. I have a family thing Saturday night, so this will be my only fun night for the weekend.

Back at it. Hopefully you will be seeing more out of me on here in the coming months.

I'm sensing a pattern and it isn't a good one

2007-07-25T11:22:00.000-07:00

To add to the last post...This is a good friend of mine I went to high school with. We still stay in touch and I see him quite often. Does anyone else find it odd that he is going to jail and people who have killed people don't get as much time?

These are the people in my neighbourhood

2007-07-20T08:41:00.000-07:00

This was a very good friend of mine. I just don't even know what to say about this story except that I hope to god none of this is true and he was set up because of his undercover work. I was at his wedding and spent a lot of time with him and his wife in Prince George. An old boyfriend and him were best friends and the four of us were very close. I don't believe the story, but good god still very scary.

In keeping with people I have known for years who have now done something disturbing (not that I think the top story is true)...I have known this guy since about the age of 5. Mike played sports with my brother growing up (my dad coached him until he was in his 20's) and so I essentially grew up with him. This story is undeniably true as he has admitted his crime.

Sometimes life is just so sad.

In other news there was a downpour this morning and it got sunny just as I left the house...it got crappy again as soon as I got to the office. Sometimes I take what I can get ;)

Looking forward to this tonight. I have a feeling I am going to be dropping a lot of cash at this place.

So, this leaves on questions...who wants to drink with me this weekend? Anyone?

Thursday Thursday Thursday

2007-06-28T15:24:00.000-07:00

This week has been crazy busy. I was up super early this morning and tried to get ready around packed boxes that seem to have overtaken my apartment. I was supposed to have an 8:30 conference call and I wanted to be here in plenty of time to prepare. Of course, they never called. I hate that! It was OK because I had a ton of other stuff to do. I am not working tomorrow due to the move. I am so glad it is happening tomorrow. I want it to just be done already!

Going out with the girls tomorrow night for dinner. We are having drinks in my new pad first though. I have to break it in of course. I am hoping to be mostly done the move by the late afternoon. The movers are coming at 8 tomorrow morning, so they should be done by 11 I am hoping. Though the way I have packed may hinder that. I have few boxes, but they are all sooo heavy and I don't have an elevator at my place now. It could make them hate me a lot. If I was them I would want to go up and down the stairs as few times as possible, so really I am doing them a favour!

Tonight I was planning on staying in and doing all the last minute things I need to do, but not sure what will happen with that. I need to get some of my shit from T, but I am thinking I might just have him drop it off for me later. Probably the best idea. Last year when I moved I was very hungover and it made for a most unenjoyable day. I hadn't been drinking at all leading up to it and went out with Danno the night before the move and decided to make up for the time I hadn't been drinking. I fell asleep on the floor while the movers moved around me. They took a load downstairs and came back up and the mover told me I smelled like I bathed in vodka. You know things are bad when a mover is calling you out.

I can't believe I have lived in this place for a year. It seriously flew by. I think it feels like that because I have spent very little time there since I moved in. In the year I have stayed a lot at T's and at the guy before him's place. In the last 5 months I have stayed at T's more than my own place. It also seemed like the nights I wasn't at his place I stayed at Dale's. Just excited to be back downtown!

I am tired and bored of this now. Have a great long weekend! Happy Birthday Canada!!

Christine

2007-06-26T14:26:00.000-07:00

Well, the car isn't possessed as much as it just seems to be cursed. Nothing good has happened since fast sports car has arrived. Oh and it is fast! Love it!

It cost way more than anticipated after all the costs were figured out, there was a $2,500 tune up needed, various small things; all things to be expected when getting a car though. What wasn't expected?

-The crack in the coolant tank that was a $600 repair
-A 24-hour on our way home from dinner Friday night (far from home too, so add an additional $80 for cab rides, plus towing)
-A keying from end to to end on the side of the car, probably done in the impound lot

I guess drinking and driving really isn't a good idea after all. Though it was kind of worth it to see T actually get flustered...first time I have ever seen that.

I think it is a good thing I don't own a car!

Almost ready to move. A few minor things and I am done! So excited to move and not have all of the clutter following me around. I think I have thrown out 10 garbage bags of stuff and I gave away 5 bags of clothes to charity. I hope the homeless enjoy the bag of clothes I found in my storage locker from 1994. The dress I wore to Kim's wedding that year was in there...still covered in wedding cake...don't even ask let's just say I will never be asked to transport a wedding cake topper ever again. But really what were they thinking to ask me in the first place? When you were 19 would you choose to save the beer in your left hand or the wedding cake top in your right? Let's be serious here!

I Dare You Not To Cry or at Least Not Get Goose Bumps

2007-06-26T13:09:00.000-07:00

I think I am in love. Nothing a dentist can't fix anyway!

Update: I just found out he won Britain's Got Talent. Maybe he will be touring here sometime soon. I would be a good confidence boost...no?

If One Can Die From Embarrasment...I Would Surely be Dead

2007-06-25T11:18:00.000-07:00

Hypothetical situation...If you were moving and your father came over to help out with a few things and one of them was taking out the copious numbers of garbage bags that you had filled up during packing and you decided it would be easiest if he went down to the garbe bin and you would throw the bags over your balcony to him (to save time) and the third bag happened to explode on impact with the ground and your empty "toy" package flew from the exploded bag and pretty much onto his feet would you just jump over the balcony with the next bag of garbage? Hypothetically, of course.

A Little Bit of Everything

2007-06-21T16:35:00.000-07:00

It's Thursday late afternoon and I am going to be at work for a while still, so a break was needed to record some of the random thoughts running through my head right now...

-Three meetings in one day is too much. In fact, one is usually too much

-What I really wanted to say to the 600-pound man on the bus yesterday when he complained that the seats were uncomfortable..."are you trying to say you are ever comfortable, fatty? You have your legs spread wider than a split to accommodate that massive hanging bit of fat between your legs. Maybe that is what's uncomfortable???"

-I would really like to be able to get inside a certain person's head right now.

-Am I single???

-Taking aerobics classes really teaches me one thing...there are a lot of really shitty songs that have been remade into "dance" songs. If it sucked the first time around please don't speed it up ten-fold and rerecord it. No one wants to hear it.

-I just sent out a presentation with a spelling mistake in it. Jesus H. Everyone understands that wesbite is just a fun new way of spelling website, right?

-Why do people constantly walk into me? It happened at least 4 times in a row the other day. I was also cut off by a mini van and a dog. The Ex always said it was like I was walking around with a target on my chest.

-I am moving in a week and have done nothing except pick up boxes. Why do I think someone is going to come and do this for me? Mom, Dad? What are you up to next week???

-I am excited to move and no longer have to save my goddamn change for laundry

-Also excited for big kitchen

-Also excited for rooftop hot tub

-Excited for dinner with the girls tonight

-I hate this weather...can't it just be nice?

-T and I are supposed to be going to the White Stripes Sunday...I hope that is still going to happen

-I downloaded a lot of gay music last night...don't be sad and download!!!

-Don't be sad and listen to anything by Lifehouse

-I sucked out loud at ball last night...that's what I get for missing the last 2 weeks

-Why would a guy I had one date with last year email me totally out of the blue to ask me for lunch? There is a reason we had one date...you gave WAY too much information on the first date (it might not be a wise idea to share the "I dated a hooker story" on the first date) and you called me right after the date to tell me you are in recovery...in what way does that make us a match???

-I haven't been drinking near enough lately...except for last Tuesday (hangs head in shame...sorry and thank you Leanne!)

-I need to plan a trip to places far, far away this year. I need to cross a large body of water to achieve this. Maybe a quick European jaunt is in order

-It is the first day of summer and it f'n blows out...why did they just say on the radio that this may be our worst forest fire year ever??? It may need to stop raining in order for a fire to start me thinks

-I am concerned about the warning by the manufacturer of the newly approved over-the-counter diet drug Alli...If you take the drug and do not eat a calorie and fat-reduced diet you should wear dark pants and also take a spare pare of pants out with you at all times. Don't.even.want.to.know

-I am glad that I only have a double chin in pictures that I attempt to take of myself and not in real life. Though does it really matter if I don't seeing as every picture of me will have a double chin? Will anyone believe me that it is only in pictures????

-Boys are like sharks...they can smell blood and go in for the kill quickly and violently.

-My veil-wearing picture has raised a few eyebrows. Through the helpful hints of Leanne I have decided that since I will never get married that I am going to get a dress and have all my friends dress up in matching shirts and have a night out where I attempt to get a date. I will do whatever the damn bachelorette cards say...I am single after all...how would that be for a great "how did you two meet" story

-I am bored of this post

Posting Block

2007-06-19T13:24:00.000-07:00

I have been so incredibly busy the last while that there has been no chance to update at all. Work is soooo busy, which is taking up the bulk of my time right now. I can't complain though...I miss being busy and working is taking my mind off of other unpleasant things going on right now. Why does everything have to be so confusing? That's all I am going to say about that.

The past weekend was good and bad. I had goog times on the surface, but underneath I wasn't so good. Friday night we went to YBP for Marky's birthday. It was a good crowd. We were there most of the night and headed to BN at about 1 am. After BN we went to P1's for a glass of wine and I ended up falling asleep on the couch.

I got up in the morning and headed to T's. I picked up some stuff and we had a chat and then I finally drove fun new car. I took it on a little tour and all I can say is "wow". How fun!!! I dropped myself off at home and basically showered and got ready for Saturday night's stag.

Mark and Dale came and picked me up and we went to their place so Dale could get ready and then Mark dropped us off at the stagette starting point. I only knew the bride and Dale, but met some very cool women. After lots of food, some drinks and an exploding penis cake we were off on the limo bus to see the Chippendales. Priceless!!! I am not a fan of the male strippers, but this was pure cheese and actually in the end was pretty entertaining for the whole hour that we were there. Dale and I ended up sneaking out for a smoke and some of the other women came withus. When we got outside the limo was already there so we went and sat on the bus and drank and waited for the others to get out of the show.

From there it was back downtown for BN again. Kind of getting sick of that place...not going to lie. The party was pretty mellow...I didn't drink much and was home in bed by 2.

I was up early on Sunday to go get dad's Father's Day gift and then headed out to see him and the rest of the family. I was having a bad day, which made dad sad and then we had a pretty disasterous lunch/brunch. So not the best dad's day ever for dad. I have to make it up to him some night. I was home by 5 with a whack of boxes to start packing for the big move. I ended up working most of Sunday night.

I had my first big presentation on Monday morning, which ended up going quite well (i think). My boss was impressed atmy confidence. I had to confess to my ability of bullshit. Maybe not something you should tell your boss!! haha.

This week is going to involve me working a lot. I just realized that I have to take off the next two Fridays after the one coming up. The 29th I am moving and I will be in Calgary for Stampede the following Friday. It looks like there will be weekends working in the next while, which if the weather stays this way shouldn't really matter. Seriously...what the hell has happened to our weather. It makes me want to cry.

Shitty update, but I am too busy for more. I will try to post more in the next while.

I did it! And I am paying for it now!

2007-06-11T13:20:00.000-07:00

Well, I managed to run and finish my first (and more than likely last) 1/2 marathon. It was a really good experience, but I am not sure I would want to put my body through it again. I managed to run almost the entire race...I only walked for about 2 minutes total the whole time. Mind you, some of the running was really just a fast walk. I finished the first 10K in an hour, so I was happy with that because I was taking it easy in order to not kill myself. After about 9k I ran the race alone. Vicky had gone ahead (and ended up finishing in 1hour 57 minutes!) and Michelle was a little behind me. I had my iPod on and was enjoying the alone time and the scenery. I ended up finishing in 2 hours and 10 minutes.

The trail was pretty cool. There was about 3 or 4k that ran along the beach in Ucluelet and it was beautiful. My iPod also seemed to be totally in synch with what I needed for the day. I think I may have only forwarded past 3 songs. Every time a new song started I got a bolt of energy and was immediately taken back to a time that that particular song reminded me of. It was a pretty surreal experience actually. I don't think I have ever pushed myself as hard before (at least not in a long time). I actually felt fine throughout the run...it was just the last 2K that were hard and the calves and thighs had pretty much had enough. Amazingly my lungs and my stamina were still good. I was able to sprint the last few meters even.

As soon as I stopped running I immediately started getting major stomach cramps. I tried eating some post race carbs, which seemed to work for a bit, but not long. Vicki was having the same experience as me and we were not happy. After the race we went back to the cabin we stayed in the night before, which was super cute. The three of us who ran all showered and got ready and then we were off to Tofino for lunch. Vicki and I were both still not feeling well, but I managed to eat and drink some tea. Throughout the drive back to Nanaimo I had waves of nausea...Vicki was much worse...she slept most of the time and was starting to get a little delusional. We were both very dehydrated and that is why we were both not good. I was drinking lots of water and Powerade, but my body wouldn't absorb it. As soon as I drank I had to pee it all out. I am still not 100% today, but much better. Though I should mention that I can barely walk. My thighs are so incredibly sore I can't even believe it. The stairs at the office are quite daunting. My boss was keeled over in laughter at me trying to navigate the stairs this morning.

I am kind of all over the place with this post. I should go back to Saturday morning. Michelle, Sandra and I ended up flying over to Nanaimo on a float plane (my first time!!). It was pretty cool except the city was pretty socked in. We landed at about 12:30 and Stacey and Vicki were waiting for us. We stopped by Sandra's parents and had lunch and then we were on our way to Ucluelet. We got to the cabin and sat around and then headed into the town to register for the race and go to the carb load dinner. I have to say, this was a highlight for me...guilt-free carbs!!! The dessert buffet was to die for!!!

After dinner we headed back to the cabin and just sat around and relaxed and had a few glasses of wine. We were all in bed before 10. I slept really well and we were up at about 7:30 on Sunday and I started the getting ready. The race started at 9 and we were back at the cabins after by noon. So not a bad way to spend a Sunday morning.

Michelle and I flew home at 6:30 last night and it was much better this time because it was a clear and sunny night. The coolest thing was flying over the Aquarium and seeing the beluga whales swimming around from up top. I don't know why that excited me so much, but it really did. The bad part was seeing the Stanley Park devestation that is still horrible months after the crazy winter wind storms. I have to say...flying instead of taking the ferry was such a good idea. It is only 20 minutes and so painless. I am not sure I would take the ferry again now. T and I are wanting to go to Tofino camping this summer so in that case we would have to drive, but otherwise I am not so sure. After that the next trip is for Rob and Michelle's wedding...might have to think about flying for that. On the way to Nanaimo we stopped by there wedding site...it is so nice. Even though I felt like I wanted to die inside I put on my nice face for Michelle!

I think because of the state of my knees I am going to stay away from running like this now. I am very interested in starting to train for the adventure races that happen in BC. I think it seems like way more fun because you get to do so many different disciplines. Mountain biking, rappeling, trail running, kayaking, etc. There is a training course coming up in August that I think I am going to take to see if I like it. I do like the feeling that comes with pushing my body like that. It is good to know that I can do it. I was thinking about it yesterday after the race....a year ago at this time I weighed close to 200 pounds. It is amazing how much things can change in a year...I have to say I am pretty damn proud of myself!

The blog that got away

2007-06-08T13:49:00.000-07:00

It has been a long time with no activity here. The week has been incredibly busy...here is a checklist to keep you up to date in my world...

-working late every night:check
-missing baseball because of work:check
-three day hangover that finally cleared yesterday: check
-taking a half day off yesterday to go pick up T's Porsche: check
-trying to go to a movie Wednesday and Thursday night and not making it: check
-no smoking:check (trying not to make too a big deal of this yet, but so far so good)
-eating like a fiend:check (see above)
-watching a DVD Wednesday night: check
-purchased and watched Seinfeld season 8 last night:check (we fell asleep after 2 episodes)
-got up at 5 am this morning:check
-Got home at 5:15 this morning and decided to stay up and go to the gym: check
-did laundry before 7 am this morning: check
-Going to opening night of Ocean's 13 tonight: check
-flying to the Island tomorrow: check
-running a god damn HALF MARATHON on Sunday: check
-flying back from the Island Sunday night: check

I have not got anything organized for this weekend's marathon. I haven't even been running due to knee issues that have come up recently. Am I going to die? More than likely. I don't have raingear or anything that will help me out in the inevitable downpour. I suck and this should be a pretty funny performance by me. Wish me luck!!!

Please see post title from yesterday, con't

2007-05-30T11:17:00.000-07:00

Last night was a glorious night of nothingness. Well, not complete nothingness, but I was excited to be able to go to bed early and not have to rise at the crack of dawn to go to the gym. Wednesdays are a day off on the new regimen I am doing. I had booked my cleaning lady for this morning at 8:30, so she would be arriving right as I was leaving and it would be a well-coordinated key and money transfer and I would come home from baseball tonight to a fresh, clean place. Do you think this happened? NOOOOOOOO!!!!

I went to bed at about 10:30 last night and planned on reading for a while, which I did. However, it was apparent that someone across the lane was having a party on their deck. I figured by the time I was ready to sleep it would be over...it was a Tuesday night for god's sake. Well, let's just say I tossed and turned until about 1am until some guy went into the lane and lost it on these guys. He was screaming and yelling at them. As soon as it started the party went inside and closed the door...problen solved, right? No, the ahngry Iraqi in the alley decides that he is continue to scream and yell in the general direction of the apartment that was once having a party and was now just a quiet apartment for a half an hour. I ended up losing it on him after ten minutes of his Iraqi ridiculousness. Apparently he is connected in Iraq, so I am expecting some sort of bomb waiting for me on my doorstep very soon.

After all of this I finally fell asleep feeling somewhat relaxed because I didn't have to be before 6 to workout. I could sleep in until 7:45 and still have plenty of time to get ready and make my lunch and get to to work. Does that happen? NOOOOOO!!!!

My f'n cleaning lady starts buzzing at 7:20am. WTF??? I was sound asleep and not the least bit happy. I answered and asked why she was there. She said she didn't want me to be late for work, so came early. Well geee, thanks for the concern, but I made the appointment for 8:30 for a reason. She came up and told me she thought we had booked 8am. Either way you are still WAY TOO EARLY!!! I wanted to strangle her. So, my night of great sleep was really just a complete wash. I am not a happy camper today. Add that to the fact the bf just told me he might move out to the burbs and ya, the day has sucked. I had to remind him that a) he will hate it there b) I don't have a car, so we will never see each other and c) don't be a dumbass. This is all happening because his tennant decided to tell him on Saturday that he is moving on the 15th...of June. Total a-hole!!!

That was my bitch blog for the day...hope you all enjoyed!

What does it take to get some peace and quiet around here?

2007-05-29T09:16:00.000-07:00

The weekend that was supposed to be quiet ended up being anything but...it always seems to be the way. T came and picked me up on his way home from work on Friday and we went to his place where the plan was a walk and then a movie. We decided on a glass of wine first which turned into 1 and a half bottles of wine (with no dinner). We took the rest if the second bottle of wine in a to go cup and we were off for our walk. This wasn't enough though and we stopped for 4 Smirnoff drinks as well. After polishing most of that off we walked a bit and did other things that were not walking (which really bruised up my knees and legs nicely!!!!) We headed back to his place and both passed out sans dinner. Not too smart at all.

T was up at 6am Saturday morning to get to hockey. I decided to get up too...not too sure why I decided to get up exactly. I ended up watching a movie and then going to the gym and then going to grab some things at the store. I was back at T's and showered by 11am. He came home and went to the gym and I went and did some errands and some shopping (spending like a retard these days). We ended up having some wine when he got back. The plan again was a bottle of wine, sushi and the couch. After a glass of wine we decided to head to Chapters. T decided we needed a drink at the pub across the street first, so we went in and Rob and Michelle were in there. We ended up sitting with them and having way more than one drink. After a few hours we decided to all head to dinner. We ended up st Saltlik, which was quite good. Three bottles of wine with dinner and T and I were drunk...again...with no books! Rob and Michelle decided to go to M & D's, but T and I were way too tired and drunk so we walked home and went to bed.

He was up at 9 on Sunday for a family thing and once again I decided to get up to. I didn't do a whole lot but watch TV. I went out for a walk and lunch and then picked up food for dinner. I decided to make a gourmet meal and after T was home from the gym we had rack of lamb, potatoes and asparagus. It was delightful. We had a bottle of wine and watched a movie and were in bed by 11.

I was a tired kid yesterday morning. Feeling much better today.

Much more to catch up on, but must run now.

Moving...again

2007-05-25T14:36:00.000-07:00

So, I had lunch with the Ex yesterday. I love that he chose to take me out the one day I happened to really dress up and look good. Total coincidence too! It s always good to catch up with him, but strange at the same time. It is weird being with someone that you once knew so well and now you are really nothing more than an aquaintance. You know a little of what is going on in their life through the random phone calls and emails, but you don't really know their life like you once did. I can tell he stil doesn't like to talk to me about the girlfriend, which is odd to me, but I guess he thinks it is something that doesn't affect us, so why bother. Anyway, it was all good and we had a good time catching up.

I told him I still want to move downtown and seeing as T is all over the map these days it doesn't look like I will be moving in with him as was the original plan. It just so happens the Ex's place is going to be empty on the next few months and I can move in if I want and the rent is $300 less per month than what I am paying now. His place is pretty nice too. So, that was super exciting news. I am seeing T tonight, so I am going to let him know about this turn of events then. I wonder what he will think or if he will even care. He isn't the type to show concern or get emotional, so it will be interesting. I am assuming at this point he knows that I am not going to be moving in anytime soon unless he cleans up his act, but who knows with men. Sometimes they can be so dense. On that note, he has been a very good boyfriend today...why can't this just come natural to men? I don't get it.

T also went ahead and bought a car this week (think very expensive sports car). I love how he says "we" will have an awesome car for the summer and "you" can drive it whenever. I will see how true this is when it arrives all shiny and pretty from Florida.

I have no plans for the weekend. I am hoping to lay low and just relax. T and I are going to hang out tonight. We will probably be super mellow. Although I am having quite the hankering for some red wine. MMMMMMMM wine!

I know you all do it secretly

2007-05-23T15:03:00.001-07:00

Take a minute to look at my company's newest blog....Blabaloo. Basically every celebrity gossip site you can imagine all in one place. I am trying to get some feedback on the site, so if you have any questions or comments please send them my way at nadams-at-inveslogic .com. I am sure you all know to use the proper conventions when emailing...I just don't particulary feel like letting my virgin email address fall into the hands of the evil spammers.

Stil so tired from the long weekend, but rest assured it is well worth it. Saturday went from "worst day ever" to "I am having so much fun I am not sure I would be sad if I died right now" all in a matter of hours. It is amazing how a day can change. A weekend like that is needed every now and again that's for sure.

Tonight is baseball night, which I always look forward to, especially since I have been pretty hot so far this year. The weather isn't fantastic, but not raining, so that is positive.

I am seriously considering starting a new blog entitled "Conversations with the receptioist". Look back for some conversations that have already happened. Today's conversation revolved around my lunch, which she inspected to within an inch of its life and then told me that spaghetti originates from China. Marco Polo discovered it when he travelled there and brought it to Italy. She explained that he was an explorer...(Really??? I thought it was just a name someone made up while bored in a pool one day!) Also, he apparently died very lonely. I guess that is the difference between travellers now and then...when was the last time you heard of a man travelling on business to Asia and being lonely?

Will Dig for the Play-By-Play

2007-05-17T12:37:00.000-07:00

I just received an email from the BC Lions. They are having their ring night and they are selling tickets to the public so they can have drinks and dinner with the players and coaches and see the players get their Grey Cup rings. The tickets were $175 and the main thing you seemed to get was a picture with the Grey Cup. Here's a hint...go to the Roxy a few nights after the win, don't pay cover to the bar (sorry, only guys do that!), and there, my friends, is a way to save $175. I figure I made money because the Lions were actually buying me drinks all night.

I will dig into the old blog and post the play-by-play of that evening, which was so nasty. I still have a certain married Lion texting me to this day after that night. Maybe it was my mad tambourine skills that I displayed on the stage with him will backing up the house band. Myabe it was my complacency in not minding heading to the casino at 2am on a weeknight. Maybe it was complete lack in interest in who he and his teammates were and more concerned with ordering bottles of Veuve. Either way...good times!

Humpday Musings

2007-05-16T14:26:00.000-07:00

-I rode my bike to work today and I take a street that is a designated bike road, so there are lots of people riding along with you. Today, me and three other women were all sort of riding in a pack the whole way. It brought out my competitiveness and I really wanted to be in a real bike race so I could kick them and "win". What I would win I am not too sure...get to work quicker without any road rash????

-I just walked back from my lunch and there was a guy riding his bike down Broadway...no helmet, listening to his iPod and playing "air drums" while coasting with no hands. Please fall into traffic young man...please!

-The weather will always be nicest before the weekend when the city will once again be awash in rain.

-This is the first May Long I will be in the city in a lot of years. What the hell am I going to do with myself? Damn T for talking me out of a road trip!

-My boss rocks except that he left me here along to go get drunk. Hellooooo! How unfair is that?

-I was walking to get my lunch and my smokes fell out of my pocket. There was a woman walking behind me and she didn't say anything to me. I realized a few feet later and went back to get them and the f'n bitch had stepped on them. Who does that? Bitch is lucky I was wearing very uncomfortable shoes or I would have done something bad to her. (it has been a violent day!)

-Excited for baseball tonight. I keep trying to tell myself that softball is a workout...denial is not just a river in Egypt!

-The receptionist at the new office is strange. She asked me how much water I drink then told me in her broken english that is was too much and that it makes me go pee too much (apparently she is counting my bathroom breaks). She has also noticed we are going through more toilet paper recently. Fine lady I will drip dry for your cheap ass, how is that?

-The bathroom nearest ny office is co-ed. Men that use it don't put the seat down (totally can't believe this). Also, someone who uses this bathroom is in desperate need of this product! Props to Philips for one of the better microsites I have seen in a while! Thumbs down to the man who has pubes longer than my bangs! (at least I hope it is a man) I just threw up in my mouth a little.

-Ironic that part of my new job is going to be to blog...about blogs. I am sure this is probably not a true example of irony, but get over it. It is ironic in the Alanis sort of way.

-Back on track with my eating plan and feeling good.

-Looking at trends in what people are searching for online is very disturbing. I am researching baby and infant type searches and lets just say I think that half the people in the world are seriously f'd up. Please get help if you are one of the hundreds searching for the nastiest things I have ever seen. Please!

-Diet Coke is my saviour!

I was visited!

2007-05-15T11:43:00.000-07:00

This may be a strange post for people that don't believe in an afterlife or in other beings being present in your life (other than the living). I have had a few experiences in my life that lead me to believe that there is more out there. I also had a Great Aunt who was a psychic. She used to help various police agencies find bodies and other such things. My dad saw her go into a trance where she became the person she was channeling, which made him a believer. She passed when I was about 16, but her impact has stayed with me. She used to always tell me that I had the "gift". For some reason this always scared me. She was always talking about how she saw various dead people she knew the night before, etc...it always seemed like something that would freak me out. She told me many times to not be scared and to be open and these interesting events would happen. Because of this I always tried to be not so open and a little scared...could I handle a visit from the dead???

Ever since I have lived on my own (really on my own, not with a smelly boy), which was about 21 I have had about 5 experiences that have made me a believer. The first experience I will leave for another day...Instead I am going to exlpain what happended last night.

I was exhasuted and went to bed at about 11. I was laying on my stomach and was drifting off to sleep. All of a sudden I could see bright flashes in the total darkness (my eyes were closed). It then felt like someone was over me and put both of their hands through my hair from the nape of my neck up to the crown of me head and then slowly pulled their hands out to let my hair fall back into place. I was scared and also felt like I couldn't move or open my eyes. I also didn't want to because it didn't feel scary. I tried to start a conversation in my head with whoever was there (I assumed it was my aunt), but then I just felt something wrap itslef around me. I also felt like my head was being pushed deeper into my pillow. This made me panick because I was worried someone was trying to smother me. This stopped and then it felt like something was lying on my upper back (this was a favourite spot for my old cat Marley to sleep). After what felt like a few minutes, but was probably only 30 seconds, I was able to open my eyes. I had been sleeping for only 15 minutes. I was a little scared, but also felt totally at peace and was able to fall back asleep and have a dreamless night.

I do live in an old building, so there could be someone wandering around in there sitll (should do research on the building perhaps)or it could have been a dead relative or Marley just coming back to check on things. I am not sure what it was, but it was definitely an experience and not my first one. I realized after that I had been trying to smell very intently because I wanted to see if I could smell my aunt's perfume, which I would recognize right away, but there was no discernable scent that I could pick up (that probably also rules out the cat then too!!!)

Maybe I am just going insane! That is always an option too!

But I don't want to be a pirate!

2007-05-14T16:48:00.000-07:00

Lately when I haven't gotten enough sleep (especially if there was drinking the night before) I get the sorest left eye in the world. Like someone poked me with a stick right in it. I am guessing no one is doing this while I am asleep, so there seems to be no logical explanation. For the last 2 days I have been welling up every few minutes and it bloody well hurts. The fact that my office faces right into the sun also doesn't seem to be helping matters. Sore eye and a headache from squinting from 1pm on. I am a mess!

I am also sore. After feeling like a total slob for the last few days and not getting to the gym all weekend I decided that this morning was going to be a hard workout. T dropped me off at home this morning at around 6. I ate and then rode my bike to the gym (does anyone else find it odd that there are no bike racks at the gym???) I ran for about 6K and then did the world's hardest ass and leg routine and then pedalled home with very shaky legs. I got home and showered and got pretty and then decided to ride into work today. My legs are sore and I still have to ride home! It is really bad when my thighs are so sore that I actually wore my running shoes with my business suit today when I went out to get lunch (and I walk down a very busy street for said lunch!) There was no way the stilettos were going to get me there.

I am trying to get back on track with my eating as well...I have been slacking lately and I feel gross. I am sticking to the eating plan from the nutrionist again. I have been eating well, but have definitely been slacking on the amount of food I should be eating. I have also been adding in extras that I shouldn't be eating like hummus and tzatziki. So, before things turn bad I am trying to go back to no cheating. I have found green tea to be a great appetite suppressant in between my 5 meals I eat a day. It also helps with only getting about 6 hours sleep last night.

The weekend was fun. The BBQ Friday night ended up being very big. There were a lot of people there and it was a good time. I managed to pass out on the chair and woke up in the morning feeling quite shitty and taking a cab home. T came and picked me up at about noon and we went for brunch and went and did some shopping (hot new white stilettos for me!) and then headed home so I could get out to the 80th birthday. That was pretty uneventful to say the least. I put in my hour and I was back downtown before 7.

T and I ended up just going out for dinner, which was truly amazing. The food was soooo good. After dinner we went to Cardero's for after dinner drinks and then headed home after a great night out where we both fell fast asleep and managed to sleep right through until almost noon on Sunday. We were both wiped. After lazing about for a few hours we both had to get to our mom's day things, so he dropped me off at the Aunt's for our family BBQ, which was great and then I headed to T's by about 7. He got home at about 9:30 and we watched a movie and both crashed.

It was a good weekend all in all. Unfortunately it is supposed to get shitty just in time for the long weekend too! Really happy about that...Bugger!

Fess Up People!

2007-05-11T16:35:00.000-07:00

Everyone talks behind people's backs. There is no one out there that can say any different because EVERYONE does it. The way I see it there would be a lot of silences in conversation if we never spoke about others. Now, there are 2 kinds of talking behind someone's back. The first is when you are just generally talking about someone. Maybe they got drunk and did something funny and you are relaying the story to someone else. You could be talking about their job to someone or how their last haircut was bad. You know stupid mundane things. I think these types of stories make up about 80% of most people's conversations. These things are not hurtful and usually just funny.

The second type of this behaviour is the malicious kind - meant to hurt someone or more than likely to make the person doing the talking feel in some way better about themself. EVeryone knows people that do this...it is often very prevelant in the office environment. I worked with a lot of women like this and they are poison...stay away from these people. They will never be genuinely happy for any successes you have and will spread gossip about your personal life and will hint at unseemly goings on (like you only got the promotion because you had sex with a superior, etc).

I have never understood this maliciosness. I think I actually HATE 2 people that I know...mostly because they were dishonest, but I would never even do this to them. It isn't worth my time. Maybe I have been so lucky to have such amazing friends that I don't feel the need to make myself feel better by putting down others; my friends give me all the validation I need.

I have had a lot of crap come back to me recently. I find it interesting that the people that have been outed for saying things are not from Vancouver. One thing I can say about it here is that it is a SMALL city...there are no secrets that will not end up getting back to people.

I usually just ignore when this happens to me (again, not worth my time), but this time things were said to people that I care about and I wanted it to end. I confronted 2 people. One was very apologetic (though I am sure it was more worried because he was caught), but either way there was an apology and a promise for it to end, which I have found out now was a lie, but I digress. The other person flat out lied to me and said he didn't do it...really??? Good god, if you did it just own up...you are caught and now I have even less respect for you than I did before and guess what that warrants anyone a pink slip. You're fired! And you know what? That should bother you because I am a damn good friend, but you should know that because I helped you out in a time of need! Enough said!

Anyway, it is Friday and the work week is over and I am so damn happy with the direction that I am going. I feel liberated from an unhappy situation. I have often read that you can never have the main three things in your life go right at the same time. The three being love life, work life and your place you live...I can honestly say for the first time in many many years I feel like I have a good hold on all three. Even though I am not happy about the prospect of moving soon it will be an amazing move and it means I will be living with someone who I love more than I love cheese for god's sake! Now if I could only cure myself of my beastiality problem....I kid I kid!

Tonight is going to be the breaking in of the Oord backyard for a BBQ. Though Dale and I managed to do a little breaking in ourrselves last night. It was a bit of a late night for me, but I surprisingly feel OK today.

Tomorrow I have to go to some Uncle's 80th birthday. I believe I have met this man about 5 times in my life and 4 of them were under the age of 5. I am still trying to figure out why my mom is so set on me going. Anyway, I am taking T's car and planning on being there for about an hour tops. I am not sure what I am up to tomorrow night yet. T is going out with his buddies, so I may go with them or maybe head to an ex cowroker's birthday party downtown...not so sure yet.

Sunday is mom's day and I am going to head out to Surrey to meet my mom and dad at the annual car show even though they don't have the car anymore (I can't even talk about this right now...soooooo upset with this). I haven't seen their friends in come time, so it will be nice. After that we are going to the Aunt's for a BBQ. So, I am going to be seeing a lot of the family this weekend. Fun times!

Bring on the sun...momma needs a tan!!!!

Yup, that was me

2007-05-07T21:20:00.000-07:00

So, the reality show aired for the first time this morning. I got up early so I could see it before most people would see it. I am not sure what I would do if it was horrible...call the network and ask them to not show it ever again? It was fine (very contrived) but fine. I am not sure why they chose the worst picture I have ever taken as my "fat" picture, but other than that it was OK. It is a pretty lame show anyway...I highly doubt many people will see it in the end. Although I think it airs 3 more times this week! Good god.

The weekend was good...mellow Friday night and up early Saturday for the gym and then I headed downtown for a hair appointment. From there I went to T's where we hashed out some things that were left hanging and then we proceeded to drink wine and watch the horses. After the race we headed out to watch the fight. The bar was already super busy when we got there and we ended up sitting at a table with 2 guys we didn't know. They turned out to be really cool and we all got along and bonded over fake tits for most of the night. Tina came and met us and after the fight we headed to YBP for more drinks. T was hammered at this point and I pretty much had to carry him home and put him to bed. I headed back to the bar because Tina had stayed. We headed to Glowbal for one more and then we both went home.

I was back at T's by about midnight, so it was an early night. We got up ridiculously early Sunday morning and I came home to grab some things I needed and then we went for breakfast, back home for NASCAR watching, went for a drive to look at Porsche's, downtown for quick shopping, The Keg for a late lunch/early dinner, to a movie, out for a walk and home for the SNL special that was on. It is amazing what you can accomplish when you get up at the crack of dawn!! It was a great day all in all.

I do recommend people that live in Vancouver go see Everything's Gone Green. It is a movie that is all shot in Vancouver and is actually based in Vancouver. It isn't exciting or earth-shattering but entertaining and the few Vancouver cliches are something only Vancouverites would get. Though I am quite sure I don't know anyone that has actually used boxes of Kraft Dinner as wall decorations. (sidebar: only Canadians call it Kraft Dinner...it is just macaroni and cheese everywhere else). (Sidebar 2: I haven't eaten Kraft Dinner in over 10 months!!!) I must be Canadian if I can actually recall the last time I ate that crap!

I must run because there is a very interesting social experiment on TV that is both thought provoking and timely. Yeah yeah, I am watching The Bachelor...get over it!

Scary Scary Stuff

2007-05-04T18:30:00.000-07:00

I have a love of all things MTV Canada. In case you haven't watched MTV in the last 4 years...it no longer shows music videos it is pretty much all reality TV and that is it. Some of the shows are just plain heinous. I am particularly enjoying on of the newer shows "Engaged and Underage". These kids (think under 19) (!) are getting married. Every person in their lives tells them how dumb they are and advises against the ridiculousness, but they all get married anyway. I have yet to see a couple that I think will make it past 2 years of marriage. They live at home, some have kids and none have money. Why God why??? I guess everyone thinks they will marry that person they think they love for the first time. Thank god very few of us do it. Can you imagine being in your thirties and being married to the person you dated at 16? Good god...bring on the trailer park! Not to mention you can't even go to the bar for your stag party! Blasphemous!

And ya to me for all the good things happening this week! One of which is my new addiction to Facebook. This may be the best time waster ever! Like I need another one. People I haven't seen or heard from in years are coming out of the woodwork. So crazy.

My future husband is fighting tomorrow night and I am so excited. I love boxing and when Oscar fights I am enthralled and scared all at the same time. I really don't want his gorgeous face ruined for our wedding photos, but he is so sexy when he is pounding the crap out of his opponent. Before this I am planning a day of watching the Kentucky Derby. I know...I am addicted to the sports. Now that the Canucks are out I need something to bide my time. I have always loved the Triple Crown races and the horse races will always take me back to the funniest moment I think I have ever witnessed in my life. It was a lovely day at the track in a private box with an open bar with old company. Everyone was getting trashed and generally having a wonderful time...I hit on the amazingly hot 24-year old bartneder (who later called!) and all was good.

Erin decided she needed some "fresh air" and asked the barteneder if it would be OK to get some of the said "fresh air" out on the patio. Bartender looks super stunned (hot, but not so smart) and wonders aloud why Erin is asking his permission to go out on the patio to get fresh air. After some very overt hand actions and him still not getting what she is asking she decides to show him the "stuff" and proceeds to open her Tupperware container (I am sure Tupperware does not approve of this use of their product, by the way)and spill the "stuff" all over the bar, in the ice tub, all over the lemons and limes and the floor. I literally fell on the floor and thought I was going to die of laughter. I have never in my life laughed harder than this without the aid of mushrooms. It took me about 2 hours to stop laughing...I was crying and had mascara all over me from the tears. They had to change out the entire bar before they could serve more drinks even though we tried to convice them that it would only make the drinks better. They were not down with that at all.

These, my friends, are the types of things one would miss out on if married at 18. Thinking about it now, maybe that isn't such a bad thing afterall. I guess I should also mention that I will dedicate this post to Erin who is turning thirtysomething tomorrow. What more appropriate place for her to be than in Amsterdam to celebrate. I love that girl!

Waiting on Sandra who is coming by to grab me to attend Colt's birthday BBQ. It will be an early night for me. I am planning an early morning workout followed by vodka, horses and boxing. God, I love my unmarried life!

God damnit

2007-05-02T14:51:00.000-07:00

So, here we are down 3-1 in the series. I am not surprised...actually the only thing I am surprised about is how close the games have been and that we have actually won one. We are a hurtin team and having the hardest time on the power play. Anyway, last night was very sad. The best part of the evening was the end of it. Leanne and I went to Our Place to watch the game and eat and have drinks. I was sucking back the vodka/waters pretty well and was expecting a large bill at the end of the night. There were only 2 on the bill and it was also missing a glass of red I had to soothe my overtime blues. Anyway, I realized on the way home that I am pretty sure I only had 2 vodka/waters and the other 5 were just water. They didn't taste like booze and I was stone sober. I don't think there was a deal at all. It all worked out well anyway as I didn't want to get hammered and I was up early this morning for the gym. All good in the end.

I am supposed to have my first baseball game tonight, but the weather is absolute shiite. I am kind of thinking it may not happen...although as I type this it appears the sun just came out. WTF??? Either way, it will not be a warm night for ball and considering I missed our practice I am going to be a tad rusty. I miss our prcatices every year and the coach always "punishes" me by putting me last in the batting order and then I go 5 for 5 and am the lead off hitter in the second game. It happens every year.

Every time I get to update this I really don't feel like typing...maybe more later.

How do you insomniacs do it?

2007-04-30T13:58:00.000-07:00

So, things with T have not been the best lately. In fact, I am sick of hearing myself talk about him and I to everyone that asks about us. Things have just been weird...we realized we had moved too quickly and took a bit of a break that last week and a half. I saw him briefly Thursday night for dinner and we made plans for yesterday. Of course, he was being a dick and we didn't end up meeting up until game time, which was 5. We met at Our Place and had a few drinks and some food and watched the first 2 periods. We then bought a bottle of wine (which was seriously gross!) and went to his place to watch the end of the game (game 3 loss...BOOOO!) and then decided to enjoy the rest of the night and take a to go cup of wine out on a walk. After we finished the wine we bought some cider and got some sushi and went back to the beach and ate dinner and chatted about what an a-hole he has been. Haha. It was good to actually talk about things.

We went back to his place and after he finished his packing for his business trip this morning we went to bed. I fell asleep for a few hours and then was up wide awake at about 3 am. I could not fall back asleep...I am guessing it was all the sugar in the damn cider (which also smelled really bad...I was 0 for 2 in the drink department last night). I finally got out of bed at 4 and watched TV. Interestingly enough there was a show on about how men cheat on their wives when they go on business trips...Just what I wanted to hear. I went back to bed at about 5:30 and T had taken all the blankets, so I got up to get another one (this was about the 5th time I had gotten up in the night) and he obviously was not happy...here is the exchange that happened that I am still laughing about...

T: Jesus Christ Nic why are you getting up again?
Me: I need a blanket and you have them all
T: Jesus!
Me: Well don't get mad at me!
T: Do I sound mad?
Me: Yes
T: Good!

I really thought that was the funniest thing ever, then again I was a little punch drunk from no sleep.

He dropped me off on his way to the airport and I got right into my most comfortable bed and slept for a few hours. I am still tired, but I am sure I will just make up for the sleep tonight. Tina and I are going to the gym and then I am going to do nothing.

The weekend was incredibly quiet...stayed home both nights...I needed it after the Wednesday night ridiculousness with Erin and Dale and the bachelorette auction on Thursday to which I played a very good matchmaker. I also got hit on a LOT...so weird that I am not single anymore and can't reciproacte anymore. Though I have to say I don't miss being single.

Everyone keep your fingers crossed for me tomorrow...good things on the horizon!

Lame update, I know. I am half asleep and not exactly feeling like being a bitch today...I used it all up on T yesterday. The boy needs to know I won't put up with his crap after all. I think he gets it now. He promised me lots of presents from his trip, so that's a start at least.

Weeeeee!!!!!

2007-04-24T16:11:00.000-07:00

I would like to thank everyone who thinks my life is so exciting that they feel the need to talk about me...incessantly. Seriously, I guess it just goes to show that I am more exciting than I ever thought. Grown men discussing me and this blog is just too funny (and VERY professional, I might add). As all of my friend who are loyal readers of this blog know, there is a lot of exaggeration and made up details on the blog. It makes for a much more exciting story than me talking about visiting my parents on a Friday night. I wish my life was as exciting as it has been and will be chronicled on here. So, I guess after saying that, I guess I can see why others feel the need to read and talk about it; I am such a damn good writer that they thought everything was true and obviously nothing was exaggerated for the sake of good writing. Go me!!!!

It feels good to get this off my chest. I love that people that don't know me are telling me things that they have heard through other people about me. Seriosuly people...get a life. I feel sorry for anyone who has taken my writing literally and then used it as a source of gossip and just something to talk about in their boring lives. Maybe I can write some of these people's memoirs for them a la Kramer and J Peterman. I am sure I could spice up those boring lives nicely. A threesome here, a night at the strippers there, cheating on the wife/husband on a Friday night...seriously...give me an outline and I will deliver some good shit!

Anyway, I just thought this whole thing was pretty funny and wanted a good rant to reintroduce myself to the blog. I am happy to be back. Don't expect a lot of posting on here, but there will be some things happening that should be fun and I will try to post when I can. I lost the creative juices for a while, but I think they are coming back...slowly, but surely.

So, it is good to be back and all I have to say is GO CANUCKS GO!!!