I Know it is Me!

So, after the last post I saw a lot of MM. He made me dinner that night at his place, which was lovely. We had a bunch of wine and I ended up crashing there. I saw him later on Friday night after Lea and Stace left from a drinking/gabbing session. I should have known it was not a good idea for him to come over when Lea and I were leaving to head out and I got in my elevator, walked into my lobby and turned around and came back to my apartment because I was way too loaded to go out. He came by a bit after that and we both basically passed out.

I went hiking all day Saturday with AT - 3 hours of hiking at UBC was insane. Neither of us planned to go that long, but we got somewhat lost on the trail and ended up pretty much as far away as possible from our starting point. I knew we were in trouble when I asked someone on a trail the way back to Spanish Banks and their face registered alarm. It ended up being an awesome workout though, so all good.

I got back from hiking and had a quick shower and DA and i went to new Earl's for food (for her) and beer for me. After insulting the waiter as much as we could Clark showed up and we all decided to head to DA's with wine for the night. After MUCH wine I decided it would be wise to invite MM over. Why oh why would I invite someone over to meet by besties when I wasn't sure I liked him??? Of course they loved him. We came back to my place that night and basically both passed out again.

Sunday I met AT for lunch in YT and ES came and met us afterwards. The 3 of us took the dog and went for a long seawall jaunt. It was really nice out. After the walk I came home and did chores around the house. I went over to Toady's for the game (MM went to it with coworkers and was heading out with them afterwards). He called me after and invited me to join them. Again, I have no idea why (damn booze!) His coworkers were great and we had some drinks and they all took off. MM and I went to IrishPub and drank beers and played darts. At some point in the night I finally agreed to not see other people (again, why???) I woke up at his place Monday morning wondering what the hell I had agreed to. I knew I couldn't do it and not into him enough to put him through my ridiculousness. I left there in a hurry and came home.

Tuesday DA came by in the afternoon. Now that I have beautiful home office she comes by in between appointments and works with me here. She was getting ready to go to another appointment and Clark called a little tipsy from a business lunch, so she came over with a few bottles of wine and the 3 of us started drinking at about 4:30 on a Tuesday. Jesus!! After some drinks and pizza and Clark's BF stopping by I was alone and realized I had to do the deed. I called MM and told him this wasn't going to work for me. He kind of got the hint on Monday morning, but still he was not happy. I think I apologized 6 times. I am an idiot! Another one bites the dust. I have never been in a situation where I dated someone I wasn't physically attracted to and I thought if I liked the person enough it wouldn't matter. Turns out I was wrong!

Yesterday I trained with DA's trainer. It was awesome to get back into that. It is such a good workout. I was supposed to go to DA's for dinner later, but our wires got crossed and by the time we touched base we were both bagged and I just decided to get some food and stay home.

I was up at 5:30 this morning for hot yoga, went to Richmond to get a monitor from the office, filled up, washed my car, got groceries and showered and got ready before 10 am! It is noon and feels like it is about 8 pm. So productive! ExT texted yesterday to see if I wanted to get coffee today. We haven't seen each other in a long time, so I figured why not. He just called and somehow he mentioned that he is living in Kits now...with his GF...who he BOUGHT a place with. Wow! I don't care about him in that way anymore, but holy fuck it was still like a punch in the stomach. He still wants to get together this afternoon, but I am not sure I am going to do it now. Argh!

In the craziness of all of this I actually have a prospect I am super excited about. If this date happens it will be a first date 5 years in the making (maybe even longer). About 5 years ago Lea and I were at the BC Lions Western Championship. I was in the beer lineup (Duh!) and a guy came up to me and whispered something in my ear and walked off. I didn't quite get what he said and just wrote it off as a drunk at a CFL game, which is usually the entire crowd. Anyway, I went back to my seat and he was 2 rows behind me. We kept smiling at each other throughout the day. After the game he came over and told me he had seen my on an online dating site. Ahhhhh...OK, so not just a drunk at a CFL game...a drunk at a CFL game who is also a creepy online stalker! Haha. Anyway, the next day he emailed me on said site and we stayed in touch, but nothing ever came of it. I ran into him at bars a few times and there was always flirting, but again nothing. One of these nights I did give him my number and we had a date all planned for a Friday night. There were lots of flirty texts leading up to it and the day of he called to let me know he had an emergency at work, so it was a no go. For whatever reason we never rescheduled. We have been FB friends for quite some time and I noticed when he added me he had a gf (or at least it seemed he did, so I never got in touch). Cue to Tuesday night - I am back on said dating site and I see his profile. I emailed him to laugh and say hi. He emailed me back immediately and said he was just sending me an email at the same time to ask if we should finally have the date. After many back and forth emails he called and we chatted for a while and it looks like this time we are actually going to go out. There has been flirty texting since then, so this could be interesting. The anticipation of 5 years could ruin this one, but it is nice to be excited about something!

The same night this was all happening DA had left here and was on her way home when she got a call from an old friend. He was at a pub with some friends so she went by. One of his friends was single and DA thought he was cute so she emailed me his pic. He added me to BBM and we started chatting. I know nothing about this guy, but we are supposed to go out for drinks tonight. It was a busy night!

Reporting on my disastorous dating life one failure after another!