Cuz I can

I have a mountain of work to do and instead I am blogging. I am so smart. A quick update on my lunchtime excursion to the gym...

I go downstairs for my 5 minutes cardio warmup, which felt great by the way (I am going to say this is due to hot yoga, but that is mostly to make me feel better about throwing money I don't have at 20 sessions of it!). Anyway, I am running away and look over at the guy a few treadmills down who looked like he might be cute. I am not one to pick up at the gym (or anywhere for that matter), but it is not often I see cute guys at this particular gym (I see lots at the one I usually go to, but sadly they are not into vagina). Anyway, I look over and he is looking at me and our eyes lock in the mirror. I think "funny...he looks strangely like someone I know in the Biblical sense, someone I have known a long time, someone who has been in and out of my life a lot (everytime one of his relationships breaks up)...and as we smile at each other I realize it is him. How random! We are too far away to chat but we smile and say hi. I start to think about our past...here it is in a nutshell:

-Meet at old hangout bar (Lea was friends with his roommate)
-Get drunk at old hangout bar
-Exchange digits at old hangout bar
-Maybe he comes home with me that night??? Recollection is not clear here
-Hang out a number of times
-He comes to my 30th birthday party (this means we met over 4 years ago)
-We get drunk
-He stays over
-He pulls an Irish Exit and I don't hear from him in some time
-About a year later I see him at old hangout bar
-He is living with his girlfriend
-He wants to come home with me
-I say no, then yes, then no
-He comes home with me
-We watch a movie
-We make out
-I make him go him
-He leaves his belt
-I tell him he should get it
-He does and again an Irish Exit
-We see each other now and again over ensuing years
-One night he ends up at my place
-Makes all sorts of promises
-Irish Exit

Does anyone else see a pattern here????

Over the last year and a half or so he has texted and emailed numerous times to say hi. I know through Facestalking he has gotten engaged to the girl he has been with for quite some time now. Since he has been with her he has tried to make plans with me numerous times...one night he ended up coming to meet me at about 2 am at D's. I sent him on his way though...I couldn't do something like that.

So, cut to the gym. As I finish my warmup I walk by him and give him a "have a good workout" and go to tend to my own workout. I see him leaving and scouring the gym for me. I am upstairs and he doesn't see me. I leave the gym and get a text about how amazing I look and it was so good to see me...blah blah blah. Somehow through text I think we just made a date for the gym tomorrow. Argh!!!!!!!!!!

Also, if he saw me now the word amazing would not come out of his mouth. I realized I did not have a towel with me after exiting the gym shower and had to dry off with my sweaty workout gear. Kind of defeats the purpose I think! So, I am an idiot who has no willpower as far as I can tell.

At least I am working out and getting in shape while doing these things!