If this isn't sporadic I am not sure what is

Ya, I decided I was well overdue for a post. Last time I wrote I was lamenting the dating scene (a recurring theme in my life). Since then not a whole lot has changed except that I haven't really been dating. I have been pursued by about every ex I have ever had - this is also a recurring them in my life. I am not sure why, but for about 2 weeks every 6 months every ex I have ever had comes out of the woodwork and gets in touch. They are always in it for the same thing too...yup, sex! I don't get it (well, I guess I do in a way - I am a tiger in the sack after all), but what do these guys think? We obviously don't see each other for a reason - why would I jump into bed with you just because you are experiencing a dry spell? Do they think women are that dumb and easy? Let's be serious here...every woman (OK, 98% of women) can get laid any time any day they want. I could go into any Starbucks in the city right now and be shagging a random within an hour guaranteed (and I am wearing ugly jeans and flats right now and didn't wash my hair this morning). Obviously this isn't the case for men. As women we hold the proverbial sex stop sign. I don't need a random text after midnight asking to "get together sometime" - you are about as transparent as Scotch Tape my friend!

It doesn't help that when I relayed this information to my nothing-but-platonic ex T he told me that people get what they put out to others. Essentially telling me I put out some sort of drunken slut vibe. Good to know! In his defense I don't think that's how he meant it and he did send me an "I'm sorry" text the next day. This could also be because he has been laid up for the past 4 weeks and won't be better for another 2-3 months and I am his main life line for companionship. Actually, I think I am important for one main thing to him - I am his bringer of booze (hard to make trips to the liquor store on crutches!) Anyway, that was kind of beside the story - interesting guy information though and I have to say I don't think he is entirely wrong!

On that note I am not drinking for the next 4-6 weeks. I had already made this decision prior to T's proclamation, so don't think I care that much about what he says...I am back dieting and trying to drop 15-20 pounds before the start of bikini season. Just a little dust off really.

Anyway, there was a random bump in with an ex who has been on my mind a lot lately, so that exchange was not discouraged. He was probably my one and only whirlwind relationship. Super intense for the 3 months we were together. We had an instant attraction, a ton of fun together and he got along with all of my friends and family. There were some problems, the main one being his work schedule was not in tune with mine and we never saw each other, so I didn't see the point of carrying on. The weirdest part of this relationship is once we called it off we never spoke. That is odd for me. I think I may have a need for people to like me no matter what. Probably explains K & T still being two of my best friends! Anyway, we bumped into each other in a bar last week and ended up hanging out all night and catching up. It was really good to see him and he obviously felt the same way. We have been talking since, but I quickly got suspicious that something wasn't quite right. My suspicions were correct and as far as I can tell he is dating someone. I am not sure if it is serious or what is going on there, but we are meeting early next week to talk about things. I am wondering if I should just walk away though. I don't need the drama and I am not into fighting for a guy - especially one I already had and discarded. He is good, but not THAT good. I have the weekend of boring sobriety to ponder where this will go.

I am not sure if I am going to keep the posting up or not, but feel free to check back and see how much my dating life sucks in the coming months!